It got worse

I ended up having rows with Nan and Mark and crying myself to sleep. I slept badly all day long and didn't even get to kiss Lukas goodnight. I feel horrible, achy all over and hot one minute, cold the next. I was hoping to do something with Lukas this weekend but we will have to see. I am so behind on everything. I feel useless and I really want a good cry but that will only make me feel worse and end up costing me more precious time.