Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Taking a few minutes to catch up

Even though no-one reads this I feel like I should be making more of an effort to take a few minutes each day to catch up. I feel like lately my whole life has slid into decline. I don't talk to my friends anymore, I don't scrap very much, I don't get any work done for dedicated2digital. In fact all I have done lately is gone to Nans, been bombarded from all sides with wedding suggestions come home and gone to sleep.
So lets talk about the wedding (get ready to be bored)
First point of argument we can talk about is wedding colours. The original colours were white,lilac and silver. My mum has argued about this non-stop she wants red because I quote (in a whiny irritating voice lol) "Its a winter wedding". I managed to convice her that blue was a fair compromise. So colours are now white, silver, lilac and blue. Even though if you ask my mum she will insist that the colours are blue,cream,and gold. lol she's such a stubborn old bat.
Second point is to do with food. When we first told everyone we were getting married Lisa said she would do the food - on the condition that my mum had nothing to do with it.Now the thing I should mention is that for everything my mum insists on Nan is just as insistant not to have it,you have to remember that for the next bit to make sense. My mum has decided that we "have to have gateaux" for the reception and despite the numerous times of us telling her it gets walked into the carpet, no-one eats it and we aren't having it still she insists. I suggested alternatives which she started shouting objections about *sigh*. The next point of argument is balloons my mum wants them, Nan doesn't because of my latex allergy. Have to admit I hate the thought of having them. Eventually it will just come down to whose the most stubborn or who shouts the loudest. We have also had rows about favours the ones I made (silver organze bags with silver heart dragees) are "too small" apparently I have to have them made by my stepdad like mum had at her wedding. I conceeded on that one at a cost of £50ish, I was just too tired to argue anymore.
There are rows about the bouquet, the decorations of the hall you name it they are fighting over it.
The worst part is everything I argue against my mum asks Mark what he thinks and he agrees with her - because he hasn't been listening as per usual. Its infuriating and theres another 3 months of this to go. My head might well explode.
Moving progress, the rooms are getting to almost liveable but theres still a lot of work to do before we can start moving furniture etc and actually start living at home again.
In other news my computer has finally been repaired today but all the data is gone. Even the file recovery program didn't work. Thats all my poetry and lots of text documents, recent pictures, scanned photos etc. I may have some on backup disks but not sure. I could always rescan the pictures I got from Nan. But what I can't replace is stuff like Lukas's first day at nursery pictures and they were so cute. I know I could always dress him the same and retake them but its not the same. The part that makes me most sad is I asked him to back up everything before he touched it and as usual he didn't. He makes me so mad when he doesn't listen. Im too tired to write anything else today but tomorrow I have an appointment to go to at 11am, and then I intend to spend the day doing whatever I want. Im thinking sleeping, scrapping, digi freebie hunting, catching up with my friends and maybe a quick trip to the park to just play. Bliss lol

Monday, October 02, 2006

Blog prompts catch up

20/09/06 If you were to build a patchwork quilt to represent your life -- one in which each square would represent a milestone or a quality that, when taken as a whole quilt, would capture the essence of who you are for your family and friends when you are gone -- what would it look like, what would you include? Describe a few of the patchwork pieces.
I never did go back to doing this one. I still think it would make a better scrapbook page.

21/09/06 What part does music play in your life? What’s your favourite kind of music? Do you listen to music/radio when you scrap? If so, what kind? How does music affect your mood?
I love music, theres so many different reasons the music goes on. I have music for when I am sad - Gareth Gates was played at Leo's funeral. Ronan Keating Lovin' Each Day is my feel good song. I love anything thats got words I can sing along to. Theres a layout all about Lovin' Each Day here http://photos1.blogger.com/hello/48/10602/320/Lovin%27%20Each%20Day.jpg

22/09/06 Today's blog prompt is about friends and friendships: Do you have a true friend? What is a true friend, after all? Are you a good friend? Describe your friend(s) or perhaps need/wish for one. I found two quotes that might help: ‘Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things’ (Author Unknown) and ‘A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out.’ (Grace Pulpit).
Hmm this is a hard one, the people in real life I have considered true friends have always ended up hurting me. My online friends are the best they listen when I need them to and hopefully I do the same, I always try to be. I will admit that I consider Mark to be my very best friend. Why is he my best friend? Because I feel that I can tell him anything, I feel I can share everything with him and he will just listen and react usually by giving me a hug, he doesn't judge me. I hope I am a similar sort of person with all my friends including him.

24/09/06 So many of us rush through our days - Not letting the little things that usual mean so much to us get a look in, we fill our time doing things for other people, and putting so many people before us.If you could spend a day, doing everything for yourself, with no indulgence spared - what would you do.... 24 solid selfcentred beautiful hours!
24 Hours to do whatever I want, OMG as if lol.
While I would start with a bath on my own - No Lukas.
Then I would buy more digi stash. Scrap layouts for a few hours. Then I would take Lukas to the park and take lots of pictures and then come home and scrap some more. Go to bed and actually sleep instead of tossing and turning. Apart from the sleep thing that is a pretty good description of my weekends lol.

25/09/06 What is your favorite fashion accessory or clothing item that describes you? Do you have any fashion phobias or fashion pet hates? What do you wear when you want just comfort? What makes you feel at your very most attractive? Do you have a fashion lucky charm (for example, something you wear to a first interview)? Anything you wish you could wear but don't feel you can?
My Favourite fashion accessory is actually a work in progress, for my wedding I have ordered a custom charm bracelet. Everyone of the charms is a part of who I am.
I have charms that have my name and birthday, my starsign, my birthstone,Allergic to latex, I have a Leo charm, In memory of my son charm, Mother Son charm, I love my Nana, 0% Angel, Good girl bad intentions, I don't do mornings, I also have some that I will add on my wedding day Husband and wife and the date of my wedding.
The other parts of this prompt I will come back to.

26/09/06 What are your scrapbook ‘buttons’? What item(s) do you find you can’t enough of? Have too many of? Can’t find ‘the perfect one’ of? Sets you in a rant about? Disappoint you the most?
Oh dear this sounds like confession time. I have way too many papers, that I never seem to get around to using.My current thing I can't get enough of is layered templates. Lazy I know but I seem to have no inspiration of my own at the moment. Im still looking for the perfect kit to use for Leo layouts. What sets me in a rant nothing that I can think of scrapbook related.

27/09/06 What’s your dream holiday destination? Why? What would you do on your holiday? How much time would you spend there? Who would you take with you?Your dream holiday destination can be somewhere you've actually been or just somewhere you would like to go in the future. Be as descriptive as possible
Holidays don't really know what to write for that so will come back to it.

28/09/06 Dreams, goals, fantasies, whatever you call them: Describe FIVE things you’d like to accomplish in your (future) lifetime. How do you plan to do them? What are you doing today to prepare for/do each of them?
Five things I would like to accomplish for me one of those would have to be one day where nothing went wrong. Another would be a day without any pain. Remembering to get and post birthday cards on time would be amazing, I hate letting people down because of my rubbish memory. I would love to have another baby and be a great mum to Lukas and anyone else who comes along. I guess another small one is that I would love to be published in a scrapbooking magazine, because it would make Mark proud.

29/09/06 What were your favourite subjects in school? (This can be at multiple stages, such as primary school through to university.) What do you still love to learn or study or read about? What do you wish you had learned or studied?
I loved I.T lol. Computers make me happy. I love to learn anything new especially new scrapping techniques. I sometimes wish I had stayed on at college and finished my catering course. But maybe I will go back to it at some point.

01/10/06 PET HATES..if you had to list the top 5 pet hates.. the things that physically make you go "UGH"what would they be? what peeves you? What can make you leave a room!? Have a think and show us all your top five!
Top 5 pet hates OMG thats hard.
Theres lots that I hate. People standing in aisles talking and ignoring me when I say please excuse me, Excuse me, Excuse me, Move lol. Lukas's teachers talking to Mark about him - criticisms not compliments but not saying anything to me. Checkout staff in tescos that go so sssssslllllllllllooooooooowwwwwwwllllllllllyyyyyyyyy. Women in clothes shops looking at you as if to say you are way too fat to be shopping in here. People in Macdonalds who order the biggest meal on the menu and then follow that with "and a diet coke because I am on a diet". Adding that on the end annoys me, because I don't get why they feel the need to justify their food order to the idiots behind the counter because they dont want to be judged. That knowing look the staff give when I order something with a diet coke always makes me want to scream at them "yes diet, because I dont like coke, I would prefer caffiene free but you dont do it" lol.Oh dear I guess Macdonalds annoy me more than anything else. So while I am ranting about them I may as well do the rest of the stuff that annoys me about them. Lukas doesn't like ketchup on his burger it makes me heave but getting them to make a burger without it is like pulling teeth. Cold chips is annoying, ones drowned in salt is worse (especially since I don't add salt to anything). Dirty tables frustrate me but not as much as one person sitting at a family booth does. My biggest pet hate about Macdonalds has nothing to do with the franchise or the staff its about customers, that use the disabled toilets just because they are lazy gits. The baby changing room is in there too so if you have a soaking wet child/baby stinking out the place you have to wait for arrogant men and women doing their make-up. Im going to stop now because I could fill pages and pages about Macdonalds lol.

Oh Dear

I have got bad at this blogging thing haven't I lol.
In my defence I am getting ready to move house,planning my wedding and doing normal day to day life. But I promise to make more of an effort.
I love my blog it gives me somewhere to unload the contents of the day and make space in my head for tomorrow.
Anyway, what news do I have to share today? um let me think lol.
I still don't have my computer back because Mark hasn't even rung Dell to fix it yet.So I still have no private data (letters,cards,notes,poems etc), no recent photos and a few other things missing. Including my music collection *sob*. I haven't done any scrapping for a while because things are so crazy mad. I miss it a lot, I really enjoy releasing my creativity.I do have stash still though I didn't lose that this time. Having a lot of trouble sleeping which doesn't help the being exhausted thing all the time. What else do I have to say? Oh I cant remember could do some more blog prompts I suppose.