First Page done for Heathers book

Credits: Hip Camo Vellum Journalling Strip by Annette Farrelly, Calm Therapy by Wenchd Grafix, Digiscrap Tabs by Christina Renee, Remember Paper by Berna Datema, Puppy Paws by Heather Roselli, Give a dog a bone by Maria LaFrance and Dog Days Brag Book Templates by Sherri Tierney.

Di Hickman

Have you read her blog?
I get email alerts for it so whenever she updates I can read about it through my email and her latest update is a series of random questions which she has answered and challenges you to do the same so here goes.

1)Name one person who made you smile today? I don't think anyone has yet.
2)What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Trying to wake Mark up to take Lukas to school, surfing the internet and reading my emails.
3)What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Buying something from Grace Bennett's new store lol
4)What is something that happened to you in 1998? I started at Peers school, I only remember that was 98 because our computer usernames were the year we started our initial and our surname and mine was 98cblake lol.
5)What is the last thing you said aloud? Yay (I saw that there were two new actions up at Atomic Cupcake)
6)How many different things have you drank today? None.
7)What color is your hair brush? Silver and Black all three of them are, the one in my handbag is bright purple though.
8)What was the last thing you bought? Digiscrapping stash from Grace Bennett.
9)What was the last gift you received? Cash from Mark via paypal.
10)What color is your front door? White
11)Where do you keep cell phone? On my desk next to me.
12)What was the weather like today? No idea except that its too bright for me, so I have all the curtains shut in here.
13)What is the best ice cream flavor? Plain Mcflurrys from Macdonalds mmmmmm.
14)What are you excited about? Traci Reed's new releases they will be mine tomorrow!
15)Do you talk a lot? Yes, mainly to myself.
16)Name a weird food you like? Cheese and Apple sauce toasted sandwiches.
17)Cold or hot? depends on for what? Weather cold, even though it makes everything hurt worse because I HATE being hot. Food, cold I prefer everything when it is straight from the fridge/freezer, Baths as hot as I can make them.
18)What's your favorite thing to do? Digiscrap, Buy Digi Stash, Listen to music.
19)Do you want to cut your hair? No I miss when it used to be down to my bum.
20: Are you over the age of 25? Nope I will be 23 in December
21)Are you ticklish? Yes, especially on my feet.
22)Are you typically a jealous person? Yes
23)Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "L" : Lukas he's my best little buddy.
24)Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "A": Don't have one
25)Do you chew on your straws? No
26)Do you have curly hair? Nope
27)What is the next concert you're going to? I am way past my concert going days, I can't deal with the flashing lights and the noise because of the dumb medical issues.
28)Who is the crappiest person in your life? My Mother! But she hasn't really been in my life since January.
29)What is your favorite color? Depends what for? Red, Purple, Silver. I also have a current fascination with orange don't ask lol.
30)What is something you say a lot? I Love You.
31)What's your room like? Messy, disorganized.
32)What was the last movie you saw? I can't remember because I never really sit down and watch a whole film I have them on while I scrap.
33)Do you have work tomorrow? Nope, Im not allowed to work because of the dumb medical issues and it sucks!
34)What's your dream job? I don't have one
35)When was the last time you said "I love you"? I have said it quite a few times this morning
36)What should you be doing right now? Tidying up, Getting dressed, Scrapping and loads of other stuff lol
37)Do you have a nickname? Does Lukasmummy count?
38)Are you a heavy sleeper? When I can get to sleep, I can sleep through an earthquake.
39)When is the last time you did the dishes, honestly? Haven't a clue.
40)What are your pet peeves? That's too long of a list for today lol.

2 days without a post

now I have no idea where to start on filling you in lol.
I have a little TOOOOOT to share - My layout was picked for the Diva Pick of the day at Divine Digital http://www.divinedigital.com/forums/showthread.php?p=19160#post19160. YAY lol.
I have been out of the house twice this week *shock, horror* lol. I went shopping on Wednesday on the hunt for an orange top for Lukas, now you're wondering why I want an orange top? Because it matches a kit I want to work with lol. See I am that tragic, I dont have anything that goes with it, so I went shopping lol. He ended up with not just the one top he got lots. Me and Lukas both have tonnes of clothes, I get a thrill out of dressing him in cute little outfits. Mark's been enjoying his new placement at work, he prefers the new ward and seems to be a lot happier. We went to Tesco to do food shopping last night and spent double what we had budgeted for ooops lol. On wednesday I finally got the chair I have been wanting so I can sit comfortably at my desk, unfortunately despite it's £50 price tag (it was on sale for £35) its rubbish, yesterday we tried a different chair and that ones just yucky so back they both go, and back to the hateful chair I had before I go. *sigh* is it really that hard to find something that's comfortable? What else do I have to tell you about? Oh yes, Lukas. Yesterday he came home from school and Mark passed on a message from the school about him having a loose tooth. I thought they were all a bit mental since he's not even 5 yet but after a quick check one of his front teeth is loose, the reason - some little brat pushed him over at school, the other day he came home with a little graze on his chin. I didn't think much of it because he's accident prone the other day he got a tiny cut on his head when he walked into the doorframe. I dont think I have anything else to share, and since I am really tired I think I will go back to bed lol.

This is becoming a habit

Credits: 4 The Boyz Collection (4) S.E.B.S Dream by Royanna Lea Fritschmann. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Eyelet Dark, Cardstock Light, Paper Light, Brad Light and Chipboard Light. Font is KGD Tiffany.

I think I am all scrapped out for today.

Credits: Dream Elements, GetRDone Stitches, and Lil' Fan Fair by Christina Renee and Layered Templates Volume 4 Template 1 by Eva Bittig. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard Light, Chipboard Light, Dark Stitching Light, Doodle Light, Flower Light, Button Light, Photo Light and Ribbon Light. Heavy Smooth Inked Edges Action by Atomic Cupcake. Font is KGD Lindsay.

I'm off to bed now will be back to add the enabling tomorrow.

Another Layout to share

Credits:Worn Label Tape Wordart Black,Dream Elements, CT Challenge Kit, Grommet Overlays, Funky Watercolours Papers, Digiscrap Tabs, Dream Solids Brights, Rust-ease, Dream Solids Bold, Stapled Borders, GetRDone Stiches and Glitter Frames all by Christina Renee and February Layered Sketch by Karah Fredricks. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard Dark, Metal Light and Alpha Dark. Font is Century Gothic.

The way it should look

This is more the way this layout should look, for some reason the added stroke to bulk up the text and make it easier to read was too much on the web version of the layout, so I have disabled the stroke for the web, credits are in the post below even I am not daft enough to post them again lol.

Another Christina Renee Layout

Credits: Dream Elements, Dream Solids Bold, Scratched Solids Grunge, Glitter Paint Splats, Urban Buds, Gotta Luv Him, Grungy Grids, Urban Love and Hand Stamped Stencil Alpha Brushes all by Christina Renee and finally the overlay is from Christina Renee's contribution to the June Collaboration @ Funky Playground.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard Light, Cardstock Dark, Paint Light, Flower Light and Doodle Light. Font is Pea Jennifer. Photo recoloured using Old Newspaper Filter provided with Optikverve.

Believe me the journalling looks a lot nicer in real life!
Will be back to enable properly later. But if your desperate all Christina Renee Designs can be purchased at Christina Renee Designs, Traci Murphy's shadows can be found at her site, All Pea Fonts can be downloaded here and Optikverve is available for download here.

Christina Renee's CT are having a super fun challenge

You can see all the details on Christina's Blog here. Wanna see the layout I made?

(If you answered no, that's tough because I am going to show it to you anyway lol) Credits and enabling are combined today.

Credits: Christina Renee CT Challenge kit, also used Stapled Borders available here http://www.christinareneedesigns.com... roducts_id=13 and Cream Paper from Dream Solids Pastels available here http://www.christinareneedesigns.com...products_id=24 by Christina Renee.

A 2 Pager to share

This is a two page layout.
Page 1 (Top Layout) Credits: Unexpected Treasures by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Cheaters Layered template 4.1 by Jennilyn designs. Font is JPaige_Crystal by Jeanelle Paige.
Page 2 (Bottom Layout) Credits: Unexpected Treasures by Royanna Lea Fritschmann,Cheaters Layered template 4.2 by Jennilyn designs and Knock Kneed Alpha Brushes by Jenna Robertson.

Enabling: Unexpected Treasures by Royanna Lea Fritschmann is available here.
Cheaters template 4.1 and 4.2 available here
Knock Kneed Alpha Brushes by Jenna Robertson available here

Back in a bit got to go bath Lukas, and undress him for bed.

Another layout to share

Credits: Unexpected Treasures and Gettin Lined Up 01 Overlays by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Layered template 19 by Andrea Gold. Traci Murphy dropshadows - Chipboard Light, Ribbon Dark, Photo Dark and Cardstock Dark.
Enabling: Unexpected Treasures by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here, Getting Lined 01 Overlays available here
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardstock Dark available here, Photo Dark available here, Chipboard Light available here and Ribbon Dark available here

Bring on the sarcasm

Credits: Unexpected Treasures by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Calligraphy Alpha Brushes by Carla Gibson and Starting Blocks 2 Layered Template 1 by Amy Bleser. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Lace light, Cardstock Light and Ribbon Light. Font is Pea Sue's Print.

Enabling: Unexpected Treasures by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here
Calligraphy Alpha Brushes by Carla Gibson available here
Starting Blocks 2 Layered Templates by Amy Bleser available here
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Lace light available here, Cardstock Light available here and Ribbon Light available here

I hate this photo from my wedding because it makes me mad, every single time I see it. But I am in such an upbeat mood today I decided to scrap it with my very own brand of sarcasm.

It's a great reflection of me, and I even quite like it lol.

Maybe things are finally looking up for us

Tomorrow well technically today since it's 5:40am will be Mark first day at his new job. He has changed to another ward where different things are required of him and he's excited about it. For the 1st night in a long time I dont feel like crying, Lukas woke up and came into my bedroom he's now asleep in my bed. It feels good to see him there, feels good to know that he still comes to me, that he still needs me. I have spent a lot of time just cuddling and be cuddled today. This is where I belong in the world in the arms of those who love me. I don't know what things are going to be like with Nan when I get up because I went to sleep really early yesterday. This infection I have is really wearing me out and I am hurting, worse than I normally hurt but for some reason I don't feel miserable about it today. I feel at peace with the world. I feel like I can deal with anything. So come on world bring it on I can handle anything you can throw at me.

Its so sad

I spend a lot of my time at Digishop Talk, I often have a window open when I am working on the computer even if I am not reading the threads. Lately there seem to be a lot of sad threads and they make me sad. Lots of people have lost people close to them, had massive data losses and worst of all a lot of people have lost little babies in there families. I think its amazing that we have a community that's always so open to offer what help and support they are able but sometimes I wish there was more I could do than offer cyber (((hugs))). It's times like this when I really question people's faith in a god, if he/she is so wonderful then why are there so many people having such a rough time of it? I have heard it said a lot that only the good die young, and it makes no sense surely if there is a god they should be trying to leave as many good people as possible and killing of all the assholes, paedophiles, murderers, rapists, my mother etc people that are truly evil. I believe that you spread around what you are touched with, me I was touched by Nan's love and devotion and I think that makes me a pretty good person. When people are nice to me I am nice to other people. To the same token when people wind me up and make me mad that can also be tranferred to someone else. Im working on that but it's hard. Tonight there are a lot of people who are lonely, there are a lot of people worrying and wondering about family members and no doubt there are a lot of tears being shed over the world. So for whatever reason you are sad tonight this ones for you ((((((((hugs)))))))))))), and for those of you that aren't sad lucky you, please be sure to spread that happiness around as much as possible, because someday you might be the one needing the ((hugs)).

CT Assignment

Credits: Unexpected treasure by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Layered Template by Tracy Blankenship and Extreme Extras Alpha Brushes by Shawna Clingerman and Lauren Grier.

A Challenge Layout

Credits: Angler by Cyndi Wetmiller (Wetfish Designs) and F Template by Janeal (Janeal's Corner).
Enabling: Angler by Wetfish Designs available here
F Layered template by Janeal available here

This was created for the crop challenge for the Divine Diva Deal crop at Divine Digital, you can read all about it here

A Lukas layout

Credits: 4 The Boyz (Five) Superstar by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Landcape templates volume 6 template 4 by Deb F. Font is Pea Sue's Print.

Credits: Beary Sweet, Angel Baby and True Colours by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Layered template by Eva Kipler and Love Felt Action Pack by Tandika Star. Font is Pea Whinney Skinny.

Enabling:Beary Sweet by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here

Angel Baby by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here

True Colours by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here

Layered template by Eva Kipler available here

Love Felt action pack by Tandika Star available here

Scrapping layouts of Leo is really hard, I never know how to word the journalling and no matter what I do I don't think it does him justice. I don't seem to have that problem with photos of Lukas and I really wish I knew how I could get over it.

It got worse

I ended up having rows with Nan and Mark and crying myself to sleep. I slept badly all day long and didn't even get to kiss Lukas goodnight. I feel horrible, achy all over and hot one minute, cold the next. I was hoping to do something with Lukas this weekend but we will have to see. I am so behind on everything. I feel useless and I really want a good cry but that will only make me feel worse and end up costing me more precious time.

Depressed

Im feeling really down and depressed today and I don't know why, I know I feel yucky but that's not unusual nothing is different today than normal, it's not a special date or anything so there isn't a reason to feel sad and down. So why is it all I want to do is cry?
I can't seem to find pleasure in doing anything, scrapping, organizing, music. I just feel utterly miserable. *sigh* maybe it will get better later here's hoping.

Another Layout

Credits: Daddy Dude Rocks by Royanna Fritschmann and Layered template by Amy Bleser. Font is Pea Susan.
Enabling: Daddy Dude Rocks by Royanna Fritschmann available here.
Layered template was a freebie from Amy's Rock the Template Crop at Scrapbook Bytes. (Held Every Thursday night 11pm EST which is 4am in the UK)

Credits: A Whale Of A Blessing by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Layered template by Tracy Blankenship. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard Light, Cardstock Light and Glitter Light. Font is Pea Whinney.

Enabling: A Whale Of A Blessing by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,

Layered template by Tracy Blankenship available here,

Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard Light available here, Cardstock Light available here and Glitter Light available here

Another layout share

Credits: Got SWASS layered templates template 3, Paramount, SWASS Alpha Brushes and Photo FX Grunge masks all by Shandy Vogt.

It's just occured to me I haven't remembered to add the enabling for the last few layouts. So I will do that now.

The layout above is called Vacant Look and the enabling is:
Got SWASS layered templates available here,
Paramount available here
SWASS Alpha Brushes available here.
The Photo FX Grunge Masks aren't available for sale yet they were a Shines gift from Shandy, you can see what Shines is at Shandy's Blog.

Yesterday's layouts
Baby Zoey, - Enabling: Girly Wuv Bugs by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,
Swass Alpha Masks by Shandy Vogt available here,
Jellique action by Tandika Star available here,
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Photo Light available here, Jellie Light available here, Cardstock Light available here and Paper Light available here.
Layered template 7 by Renae Nicholson no longer available.

Imagine, Forward thinking by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,
Layered Template Sampler 1 by Ztampf available here
Sponge Stamped Alpha Brushes by Toni Berman available here.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Paper Dark available here, Photo Dark available here, Ribbon Dark available here and Alpha Dark available here,

Sleep, Observations of the boy by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,here, here and here (I bought it when it was a grab bag)
Starting Blocks 2 Layered templates by Amy Bleser available here.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardstock Dark available here and Alpha Dark available here.

A Man and his van, Credits: Metro Retro by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here
My Boyz All That Brushes by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,
Wordart by Wendyzine available here
Graffiti Alpha Brushes by Christina Renee available here.

Summer Fun Tropical Breezes by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Ribbon Light available here, Photo Light available here, Popout Light available here and Cardstock Light available here.
Summer Fun 3 Layered Template by Amanda Lee was purchased in the 3 day potato bar event at Polka Dot Potato.

Other layouts
The Boy, Observations of the boy by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,here, here and here (I bought it when it was a grab bag)
June Multi Photo Template by Tiff Brady available here.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Chipboard dark available here, Photo Dark available here, Metal Light available here.
Font is JPaige_Spongejob by Jeanelle Paige available here.

Isn't she a doll

It's been a while since I have done a Zoey layout. But I was feeling in the mood to do a pink layout.

Credits: Girly Wuv Bugs by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Swass Alpha Masks by Shandy Vogt and Layered template 7 by Renae Nicholson. Jellique action by Tandika Star,Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Photo Light, Jellie Light, Cardstock Light and Photo Light. Font is Vladimir Script. Catch you all tomorrow.

Another layout scrapped

Credits: Forward thinking by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Layered Template Sampler 1 by Ztampf and Sponge Stamped Alpha Brushes by Toni Berman. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Paper Dark, Photo Dark, Ribbon Dark and Alpha Dark. Fonts are - TCG_Tiger and Wasted Collection.

Just finished this layout

Credits: Observations of the boy by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Starting Blocks 2 Layered templates template 2 by Amy Bleser. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardstock Dark and Alpha Dark. Font is SM Angi's Hand.

Off to scrap some more.

The finished off layout from yesterday

Credits: Metro Retro and My Boyz All That Brushes by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Wordart by Wendyzine and Graffiti Alpha Brushes by Christina Renee. Font is Pea Meli.

Summer Fun layout and telling fibs lol

I have just finished this layout and I am quite proud of it, it's very summery and bright. It's happy colours and I really need that today.

Credits: Tropical Breezes by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Summer Fun 3 Layered Template by Amanda Lee. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Ribbon Light, Photo Light, Popout Light and Cardstock Light.Font is DB ANNA.

As for the fibs part first you need a little background. Nan had a bill she wanted paying last month but had no payment slips. I offered to do it on my debit card for her. I received a thank for your payment confirmation about 2 days later and forgot about it. Until we received a letter almost two weeks later stating that the payment had been declined and a £15 charge had been applied to Nan's account. I should also say that the minimum payment Nan had to make was £0, she was just trying to pay of the balance of the account. So today I finally got around to calling them about it. They kept me on hold for nearly 20 minutes (it's 50p a minute cheeky sods), when they finally answered the conversation went a little like this:

Me: Hi, we received a letter stating that a payment had been declined and a £15 charge had been applied, could you please tell me how you can charge me for a payment that failed that I didn't even need to make.

Snotty woman on phone: That's a standard administration charge for failed payments. Me: But it doesn't cost £15 to decline a payment. Snotty woman on phone: I think you will find it does. Me: (now here's the little fib) I used to work in a bank so I think I know exactly how much a failed payment costs you. Snotty woman on phone: On this occasion I will refund your payment. Me: Thank you very much.

The rest of the call is not important, I just found it funny how rapidly she decided to refund Nan's money for her after she thought I knew how unresonable the charge was in the first place.It also makes me laugh how these call centre people act like they are paying you with there own personal money. Anyway I have lots to be getting on with so I might be back later. I haven't been to bed yet though so I might fall asleep before I make it back here.

Been to the bar

The Potato Bar at Polka Dot Potato did you think I meant a real bar? This one is much more interesting they serve stash lots of it, all costing 99c. You can go grab some bargains of your own right here, personally I got more templates, two little element packs and the two stunning freebies collections by Jeannie Papai. I don't want more kits I have way more than I will ever use but templates I do actually get around to using them just not as fast as I would like lol.
I have almost finished a new layout that I am quite proud of I just need a piece of wordart to finish it off. I posted a little plea for someone to make me one at Digishop Talk. Lisa's gone off on holiday so no Ella or Conor for a while, it will be strange not to see them every single day. I don't really have anything else I want to talk about today well I have stuff but I just don't feel in the mood to talk about it today. Be back tomorrow hopefully with more layouts.

The kids got guts

I am sitting here giggling to myself because of something Lukas just said to Nan. She went to nose in his bedroom and was about to start moaning about the toys when in walked Lukas and simply stated "Get out, it's my bedroom" rofl she was so shocked she left. Don't get me wrong I am all for him respecting his elders but as I have tried to say to her before, if you don't like what you see in OUR ROOM, don't look. It's not like it a room in the house she should be looking in. The complete meltdowns she has over Lukas having toys out that he's playing with are bizarre, if his room was a tip I could understand it but it's not it's just a few toys and he's just an almost 5 year old, who in all fairness is a lot tidier than his daddy lol. I don't think I have anything else to share with you today. Going back to organising ACDSee catch you later.

Happy Father's Day

So I got up this morning and bullied Mark into phoning his Dad and saying Happy Fathers Day. He then phoned my dad and got an answer phone. Which I was thrilled about, because if his phone was broken, lost, damaged or stolen it was a great reason why he hadn't phoned. Then he called back a few minutes later. I was gutted because it just shows the only reason why he hasn't got in contact is because he doesn't care enough to bother. He has my mobile number, the house number, Mark's mobile number,the home address and my email address so it's not like he can't get hold of me. Nan was in a foul mood so we decided to go out. The intention was to go shopping, but somewhere along the way it got changed to a trip to the park and after hitting the local supermarket for some reduced bread and picking up a few supplies like drinks and a new football for Lukas we headed off to the duck pond. It was a long walk and I was suffering a lot (and no doubt I will pay for it tomorrow lol), but it was really nice when we got there. We sat down frequently and then when we finally got there we fed them 2 whole bags of rolls lol. Had a kickaround and then started walking home. On the way back we walked through the back streets and I happened to notice that somone had left a little bag on the side. We picked it up and there was a 7.2MP silver digital camera in it, with a 2GB Memory card. I feel awful for the person that lost it, but there was absolutely nobody in the street, I very much doubt anyone would have remembered leaving it there and I know that when all the drunks walk through there later it would have been smashed into little bits. So we now have 4 Digital Cameras. I am so looking forward to taking pictures with it. I don't have anything else to share today maybe I can get a layout finished tonight, if I dont just crawl into bed and go to sleep.

If you have a boy

run and pick up Royanna's Grab Bag at My Digital Muse. I've already done this layout with it.

Credits: The Boy by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and June Multi Photo Template by Tiff Brady. Traci Murphy Dropsahdows - Chipboard dark, Photo Dark, Metal Light. Font is JPaige_Spongejob by Jeanelle Paige.

Shopping and depression are a bad mix

for my bank account at least lol. Want to see what I got?
From Christina Renee Designs
Grungy Grids
Gotta Luv'Him
Ribbon Wraps
Dream Solids - Bold
Dream Elements
Dream Solids - Pastel
Glitter Frames
Get-R-Done Stitches
Lil' FAN-Fair Elements
Worn Label Tape Word Art
Shabby Flowers

From Sweet Shoppe Designs
Dreamer by Miriam Lima & Gina Miller
Stocking Stuffers: Dear Santa Alpha by Lauren Grier
Weddings - 4x6 CT Album by Paula Duncan
Some Kind of Wonderful by Sweet Shoppe Designs (free with purchase)

From My Digital Muse
Lala's June Doggie Bag
Lala's June Grab Bag
June Grab Bag by Royanna Fritschmann

From Divine Digital
Angler by Wetfish Designs
Cheers! by Wetfish Designs
BLOOMS! Crochet Flowers by Royanna Fritschmann
Whale of A Blessing by Royanna Fritschmann

From Digital Freebies
Commercial Use Grag Bag #1 by Bannerwoman
Mama's Rose Garden by Eva Kipler
Summer Breeze Paper-Pack by Jill D-Zines
Summer Breeze Element-Pack With Alpha by Jill D-Zines

From Scrapbook Graphics
He'll Break Your Heart by Traci Reed
Booty Suprise 2 by Carrie Stephens

I've been asleep all day because I feel horrible, but if I manage to get some scrapping done this evening I will be back to share.

Announcing the return of the moaning

I thought you might be missing it lol. My hands are killing they really need to be bandaged up again but I don't want to wake Mark up and ask him to do it. My stomach is really hurting again and I feel like I am going to throw up. I can cope with pain but not nausea it drives me insane. Mark did bacon with cous cous for dinner and I am a little bit worried that might be why I feel sick. Whatever the reason it sucks!
I don't have anything else to share since I spent most of the day asleep. I am really tired lately. The part that bothers me is that when you go to the doctors and you say I cant sleep and I am tired constantly they dont hear the part where you say I can't sleep but I'm tired. They think you are tired because you can't sleep which is true but the reason I can't sleep isn't because I am not tired its because I can't get comfortable because of the pain. I am fed up of feeling like I need my sunglasses on all the time even in the house. The light hurts my eyes, I have two choices leave it on and have my eyes hurt, turn it off and use the lamp which strains my eyes because it's low light. There is a third which is wear my sunglasses in the house, which sucks because I got the darkest ones I could find so it makes typing even more difficult. *sigh* sometimes I would quite happily kill for one day where I didn't feel shit. I appreciate the days where I only feel horrible and no-one should have to do that. Luckily I use my keyboard so much I can pretty much type without looking too much at the keys (obviously its harder when my wrists are bandaged lol). Lukas has been asking about Leo again. Sometimes I think he's forgotten and then he comes out with something about him and amazes me. It hurts though when you see him so sad and there's not a thing you can do about it. The worst part is he can't really express how it feels because I know that I can't and I have a lot more words in my vocabulary but nothing sums up the feeling of pain in your heart. Nothing comes close to describing how it feels. I find that the best solution is to hug Lukas close it helps both of us. It's Fathers Day on Sunday and I still haven't started Marks present. He will understand because he's amazing like that but I still feel bad about it. So as you can see I can't do anything right today, I feel pretty damn useless and tomorrow feels like just another chance to screw it up. Guess depressed an utterly miserable would be a good description for right now *sigh*

On a roll

Credits: Metro Retro by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Everyday layered templates by Amy Bleser. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Chipboard light and Metal light. Font is JPaige Spongejob.

Enabling: Metro Retro by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here,Everyday layered templates 1 by Amy Bleser available here, Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Chipboard light and Metal light available here and here,Font is JPaige Spongejob available here.

Another Layout

Credits: Tuscan Collection - Vino by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Layered template by Rebecca Gold. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Ribbon Dark and Font is JPaige_Crystal.

Enabling: Tuscan Collection - Vino by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here, Layered template by Rebecca Gold available here, Traci Murphy Dropshadows (I only used Ribbon for this so that's all I am linking to) available here and Font available here.

A new layout to share

I have decided that where I am able I will provide links so if you like anything I have scrapped with you can buy it yourself, I like enabling lol.

Credits: Naughty or Nice and provided layered template by Amy Bleser, Flower Brushes by Faith True and Canvas gradient brushes by Anna Aspnes. Font is Pea Prochazka.

Now to the enabling: Naughty or Nice by Amy Bleser available here, Flower Brushes by Faith True available here (but I believe they are being retired soon, so go get them while they are 50% off!) and Canvas Masking Gradients by Anna Aspnes available here.

Off to scrap some more. Back later.

It's raining. It's pouring, the other half is snoring

and yet again I am sitting here wide awake with a stinking headache. I have a sprained ankle (just don't ask) all I will say is it was all Mark's fault and he's a git lol. Just to make it better the rain is making everything hurt worse than ever. Rain sucks. I read a thread on a board earlier that made me feel sick to the stomach. There are some warped people in this world, and it makes me wonder how much worse it's going to get. Everyday in the news you hear about bad things happening - murders, beatings, kidnappings, crimes involving little kids and helpless adults and it makes me sick. I don't watch the news by choice, I only ever know what's going on when I go down to talk to Nan because she always watches the news. The way I see it, that "news" is nothing to do with me so why watch it, I like being ignorant about the world outside my bedroom, I think they are wrong when they say knowledge is power because the only power this kind of knowledge has to me is the power to make me feel even more miserable than I normally do. Ignorance is bliss! No Layouts to share today, hopefully will have something interesting to talk about or share tomorrow.

Marks not happy that I just woke him up

to tell him that I got the best news ever - I got a spot on Traci Reed's CT!!!!
What I didn't think it was advisable to tell him was that it was a guest spot for November lol. See this also buys me a free pass to get anything I want from her store (and I do buy everything that comes out lol) because he will think it's CT work not me spending rofl. So no nagging from him and one very happy mummy I think today is going to be a good day. What makes it even better is an evil little thought occured to me earlier that had me sniggering to myself for ages. Remember I told you my mother was pregnant again? Well on July 1st England will become none smoking. Now whenever my mum has had a baby before within 1 hour maximum after delivery she's been outside puffing away on her cigarettes. Up until Aidan was born they had a smoking room in the hospital, when he was born she had to go outside, when Daniel was born you couldn't smoke outside a doorway, when this one's born she won't be able to smoke on the grounds, and she's having a caesarean section so that means 5 days in a hospital with no cigarettes. I feel so so sorry for the nurses but I so wish I could see the look on her face when they tell her, she smokes anywhere between 60-100 a day. *insert evil smiley here* Right now at 2:26am I am considering scrapping, mad I know if I manage one i'll be back if not i'll catch you after some sleep.

Drowning in ACDSee

Its times like this when I question my nature to buy first think later. It was a nice idea in theory to restart my ACDSee from scratch but I think it was kind of like childbirth you forget how much work is involved lol. I did manage to get quite a few items (read over 1000) sorted, tagged and filed to be organised but I still have 1000s to do. I have layouts to do, a Fathers Day project (or 2) to complete before Sunday, and I am struggling. I am exhausted today I went to bed at 6pm last night after being up since about 8am the day before. Insomnia sucks but the aftermath of an all nighter and all day up after seems to last forever. I just want to crawl back in my bed and sleep for a week lol. So if you don't hear from me I am just overwhelmed and overtired lol. Catch you soon. x

I got busy

Good job Mark never bothers to read my blog since one of them is part of his Father's day gift lol. Credits: Paris Chic by Royanna Lea Fritschmann. Inspired by Layered template 10 from templates with attitude 5 by Tracy Blankenship. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Metal light, Paper Dark, Lift light. Font is Verdana.

Credits: Forward Thinking by Royanna Lea Fritschmann.Extras:Layered template by Tara Dunstan,The silver heart is from Foil Frenzy by Sophia Sarducci and the arrow was made using Holly McCaig's metal styles. Font is Microsoft Sans Serif.

My ACDSee has finally finished cataloging, so tomorrow I have to spend the day retagging stuff, I never imported the old database because it got corrupted so I sm starting from scratch. Shouldn't take too long, since I rename everything I just search for the designer's name and then tag all the results. My filing system is very unusual one day I will explain it to you. Its 5am so I suppose I should go to bed lol catch you later xx

So I saw this and thought it might be fun

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouagoodcookquiz/
My Result:You Are Not a Cook
You know cooking isn't for you, and you wouldn't even consider trying to make a homecooked meal.
And this is a very good thing. You've saved all your friends and family from unintentional food poisoning!

You don't say lol. I hate cooking, or at least cooking in the conventional method. I can cook anything and everything in the microwave. An accident prone kltuz in a kitchen with a hot oven is a bad idea lol. I have previously managed to cut my hand with a butter knife, an ice cream lid and more other things then I can count. Off to see what other quizzes they have back in a bit.

So I went I looked and the first one I saw was this
http://www.blogthings.com/areyouasociopathquiz/
My result:You Are 32% Sociopath
From time to time, you may be a bit troubled and a bit too charming for your own good.
It's likely that you're not a sociopath... just quite smart and a bit out of the mainstream!
Results are a little troubling, 2 of the questions probably affected the results though - Do you have a love/hate relationship with your parents, yes I do, I love them and they hate me lol. Do you have trouble holding down a steady job - yes I do but that's because I am ill all the time. I used to be damn good at my job when I was able to work.

http://www.blogthings.com/howbitchyareyouquiz/
My Results:You Are 29% Bitchy
You're a pretty sweet person, and you're definitely not prone to bitchy outbursts.
Sometimes, though, you can't help thinking mean thoughts about people. But at least you don't act on them!

One more and then I will think of something else to tell you. (There's no layouts today because of the computer)

http://www.blogthings.com/areyoulikeyourmomquiz/ (I really hope not)
My Result: You and Your Mom Are Completely Different
At times, it seems like you and your mom aren't even related.
You often wonder how two people from the same family can be so different.
As the saying goes... you can pick your friends, but not your relatives.

Well thank goodness for that lol. I would hate to think I was anything like that witch. But then since chain smoking, swearing and being awful isn't really in my nature I shouldn't have really been worried should I. I am going to raid the fridge. Might be back later but more likely tomorrow.

The one with the shadows

Credits: Layered templates with attitude 5 template 2 by Tracy Blankenship. Faded Tee and Grungy Alpha Brushes by Traci Reed.

Want some links?
Faded Tee by Traci Reed
Tracy's templates will be in her store at Scrappin Digi Kreations soon.

nearly 3.5 hours

to make a layout on Mark's computer, are you grasping why I hate it yet? It's not just how slow it runs, it's that there are no fonts on here, Mark thinks the system ones are enough I disagree!

Anyway despite how long it took I actually really like it. I used the other kit I purchased from Traci Reed - Faded Tee and one of my new templates from Tracy Blankenship templates with attitude 5 (template 2).

oh damn I just realised there are no shadows on it. Back in a bit with the revised one.

Urgh sometimes I hate technology!!!

or maybe technology hates me, my computer is having another hissy and needs a complete reinstall according to my ACDSee and my Desktop my E: Drive (the one with the photos,layered templates and stash overflow lol) doesn't exist. I can view it through my computer, change stuff and save stuff to it, so it's not broken. But I get the distinct feeling that when I phone Dell on Monday and give them a mouthfull about having to reinstall a machine thats a year old on August 2nd, they will probably tell me to send it back. The monitors not right, it has this weird haze to it (19" TFT aka not cheap lol), it runs hot, it runs slow, it closes programs when I am working on them with no warning, It often refuses to delete files or move files and it crashes a minimum of 10-20 times a day. I have just had enough today, its been one drama after another. I want to go to bed, but I wouldn't be able to sleep. Until my computer is sorted one way or another I have to use Mark's Craptop oops I mean laptop lol, so scorched legs and flickering screen here I come *insert sarcastic hurray here*

Is it too early for vodka?

Although I happen to think that today the best use for the bottle of vodka would be to smash Mark and Nan over the head with it. How can two grown adults bicker like 3 year old children constantly. I woke up to Lukas screaming the house down because Nan had the dumb ass idea of moving the mattress from the top bunk onto Lukas's bed. (Lukas sleeps on a pull out futon because Nan insisted on us having Conor's old bed - a high rise thing with built in desk and pull out futon) Lukas had a meltdown over it, Mark shouted at Lukas to stop screaming before he was sick, then Nan started on about the neighbours being able to hear everything, right now I don't want to talk to any of them. I don't understand why I have to be everyone's mother. I am the youngest adult in this house, both Nan and mark have this I know best attitude when they are both wrong. I swear sometimes Nan forgets that Lukas isn't hers and that I am his mother. She goes behind my back and gives him stuff I have said he cant have, she seems to override every decision I make and she is constantly contradicting herself. Tell me something what would you say if someone insisted on making pizza on a daily basis for your 4 year old? She feeds him crap, wont let me cook and then when I try and get him to eat healthier and he has a meltdown she makes him a bloody pizza! One day I will snap and someone will get hurt because I have no patience or tolerance left. There are only so many times, that you can be overruled, ignored, and not consulted in decisions to do with your child before you lose it. As for Mark he's just as bad. I have told him so many times not to carry Lukas home from school. He carries him on his shoulders and firstly its dangerous, secondly there's no way in hell I could carry Lukas home and I don't want him to get into the habit of being carried, thirdly the walking doesn't hurt him it gives him the exercise he needs plus it makes him tired so I am not arguing with him at stupid o'clock to go to bloody sleep. The song on the CD player at the moment is ooh stick you, with a few words edited it's very appropriate for today don't you think lol. See I still have a slight sense of humour today. Maybe I will feel a bit happier after I get something to eat, it's just occurred to me that its 5:10pm and I haven't bothered to get anything to eat yet. I don't have much of an appetite ever which makes it super depressing when I look in the mirror and see that even though I eat practically nothing I am still huge.*sigh* this is a real pity party today isn't it. Maybe I will be back in a chirpier mood later (fat chance)

I scrapped with my latest purchase

Traci Reed's In my studio - Vibrant, I got two other things as well her Faded Tee kit and her In my studio - Unbound album. I haven't got around to scrapping with them yet lol.

I also used one of Traci's Lovey Dovey Templates.

Yay

Renae put up some new pictures of Zoey.

Credits: Layered template, Lighthearted, Naughty or nice, Girl with attitude, Love Ya, Its a spring thing addon and Digiscrapdivas Mega Kit Feb 07 by Amy Bleser. Graphically grunged by Traci Reed and Ouhlala Cherry by FafBr. Font is Wasted Collection.

What's normal?

I was reading a thread the other day by someone, who was thrilled that she was "caught up" with her scrapping, and I felt sorry for her because to me that is just dull!
I scrap things as I get the mood to scrap them, that can mean Christmas pictures in June, Summer pictures in December, a masculine page followed by something in shocking pink. I also read a comment about someone who uses quick pages just to get the pictures scrapped, I think that's dull too. I love to rescrap the same picture with different kits, I love to play and create art, I enjoy the creative process. So I got to thinking if you take out the fun element, and make it just about getting the memories down on paper, is it still a hobby or does it become a duty?
Do you become the families memory keeper, legacy leaver, manager of the bank of memories?
I was also wondering whether they would mean as much to the future generations, if they are just pages to get the memory down does the heart and soul still show through? I make my pages from the heart, I try and journal so that the person reading it feels like I am talking to them. I don't scrap a massive number of pages anymore, and I get bored easily. I switch between projects and I am the first to hold my hands up and admit that I have more ideas than time/energy available to create them all. I love layered templates, but I disagree with the notion that they speed things up. I often spend three times as long on a template page as I used to on a page from scratch but I like these better. I think they take out the indecision I pick a template and then that's my starting point. The end result often looks nothing like the original template because I have added and removed until I have reached a point that pleases me.
I want every page to have a part of me in it, but am I abnormal for wanting to create art rather than a scrapbook full of quick pages? Tell me what you think about this do you scrap for the memory (preserving every single one you are able to) or do you scrap for the moment (scrapping whatever takes your fancy)?

Last nights layout - the remake

Credits: Swass masks,Swass earth, Swass Alpha Brushes and Got Frames? by Shandy Vogt. Dear Mom and Frayed Fabric by Gina Miller. Censored action by Jenn Patrick and Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Paper Dark, Doodle Dark and Alpha Dark.

Damn sometimes I hate photoshop

I just finished the cutest layout, was in the middle of saving it and photoshop crashed!
So tomorrow I have to remake it, it's wasn't a really complicated layout but it was bloody hard because of my hands hurting so much. I just feel so frustrated, it seems like not only does my own body not want to cooperate with me but technology doesn't either. *sigh* it may be life but it sucks!

Where did the week go?

Or more accurately where did the year go? How did it get to be June the 7th already?
Lukas will be breaking up for the summer soon, and it doesn't feel like Easter was 5 minutes ago. I think being ill means more days pass than you can account for, you have a few days where you can't do anything because you don't have the energy to get out of bed and those days are just gone. You can't get them back, that time is just gone forever and then you have the same amount of stuff to get done in less time. I haven't even started on anything for Fathers Day yet and that's only 10 days away eeeek!
Want to know what I have spent the day doing? I have been watching a dvd lol. I have tons of stuff to do and all I felt like was watching a dvd naughty girl. Now I am looking for something so I can get started on some more scrapping. I did manage to re-catalog my files in ACDSee though. Be back later, hopefully with some layouts to share xx

3-0 Way to go England!!!!

As you can gather they won lol. Great match will talk about that more tomorrow, currently have both my wrists bandaged because they are so sore and they need the support, so I am taking some time off from scrapping. But I did manage to do this one.

Its a scraplift of this layout here by Pennylane, for the Lifts With A Twist challenge this week. Credits: Pickin wild flowers, floral sun paper, doodle frames and Smarties alpha 2 all by Theresa Ferguson. Catch you later xx

Quick layout post

before I go and watch the football.

Credits: Got Swass? Layered templates, Not so simple solids combo, Swass earth, Swass frames and Swass for him.Font is JPaige_Crystal by Jeanelle Paige.

Back later, to moan if England lose and to be happy if they win.

wow

I obviously had more to get off my chest than I thought! I think the inner demons took over for a minute and typed all that frustration because all I really came here for was to share my latest layouts roflmao. Incase you are wondering my vodka and lime squash isn't bad. Could have done with a bit more squash lol. See all I need to feel better is a vodka and a blog. Incase any of you are wondering, no I am not an alcoholic, I don't have a problem with drink and I don't turn to it when I am depressed. I happen to be one of those lucky (being sarcastic here) people that conventional painkillers don't work on. But vodka does, one glass of vodka and the pain is a lot more bearable, to get to the point where im not really noticing the pain anymore that's between 3-5 to get to the point of being drunk i'll let you know if it ever happens lol. I can drink a lot and not be remotely drunk, they said I was drunk at my wedding, I wasn't I was very very tipsy from the champagne, I had no food and no sleep and I ended up sleeping at my reception lol classy bird really aren't I rofl. I have only ever been sick once from alcohol, it was when Leo was in hospital, I had been to help someone out (waitressing at a black tie dinner) and was feeling low and miserable and like a really bad mum, I had a few drinks with the bar staff and when I came home I couldn't sleep, I underestimated the amount of vodka that was in the bottle, and decided that since there was only a little bit I could dilute it with a can of drink it would have worked fine if not for two factors, one there was more than I thought in there and two it was the wrong bottle of vodka, it was Mark's expensive stuff. Me I have cheap taste I like the value stuff, the more expensive stuff is just too strong (did I mention I judge my shots by eye?) and I threw up absolutely everywhere and do you want to know what Mark did? He woke his mum up to clean it, I was more embarassed the next morning than I have ever felt in my life. I didn't have a hangover, I had a guilt overload lol. That brings me to a whole new subject binge drinking. The goverment here are trying to crack down on binge drinking, my argument on the matter is would you rather a: have people go out every night, drink the legal limit - 80 milligrams of alcohol in 100 millilitres of blood (80mg/100ml)and probably end up drunk.

b: have people drink the recommended daily allowance of alcohol every day (pasted from an article on ivillage) Current alcohol recommendations in the UK are up to 4 units a day for men and up to 3 units per day for women, regardless of body weight. One unit contains 8g or 10ml of alcohol and is equivalent to: 1/2 pint ordinary beer, lager or cider, 1 single measure of spirits
1 small glass of wine,1 measure of fortified wine, e.g. port or whisky or c: have people like me who go out once in a blue moon and have way above whats recommended? Just to tally it up if I was to drink the RDA of alcohol my chosen drink being vodka that would be 1 shot a day every day for a year thats 365/366 shots a year, I certainly dont drink that on one night out!

Anyway enough about that now onto the layouts.

Credits: Got Swass? Layered template, Swass Alpha Brushes and Paramount all by Shandy Vogt. Fonts are: Eurostile and Berlin Sans FB
Credits: Layered Template by Johanna Berry and Altered Ego-Envy Papers by Jennifer Howland. Font is Pea Tangee.

And now ladies, gentlemen and anyone else who chooses to read my ramblings, I bid you goodnight, maybe, I have to at least try and sleep lol

Always the bad guy

girl whatever. I am having a bad day and the reason is really simple - no one else every seems to tell Lukas its time for bed. I was 10:15pm before he finally went to bed. That was only after I shouted and ended up turning his television off. I thought he was sleeping after Mark put him to bed, I heard a noise and went to investigate not only had his dumb daddy told him he could play the playstation, he had also not picked up Lukas's toys and Lukas was sat on the floor playing with them. GRRRRRR!.
Speaking of the little cherub (insert sarcasm here), he went back to school today. I got up at 6am this morning after being awake all night and made his lunch, I laid out his clothes and his brand new shoes, got his bags out and I even put his breakfast out ready in his bowl. All Mark had to do was add milk to his cereal, dress him, and take him to school. Not only did Mark not bother to make him any breakfast this morning he also let him where his filthy, old trainers to school. Don't get me wrong I only bought them a little while ago, but after one day of wearing them they looked like a dog had eaten them, I don't really care since he is wearing them to school and they are going to get dirty again, but it's one of Nan's many issues "he can't wear those to school" blah blah blah. So I bought new ones, I laid them out in plain sight remembered to take the tags off and everything and Mark never put them on him, which set Nan off - on me!
Would anyone care to tell me why everything my almost 30 year old husband does or doesn't do gets thrown at me? Why it's my fault its not been done or why I am the one getting the earache for it? I have to sort out everyone petty bickering and fighting and I am rapidly losing my sanity. But if you think I am insane you should read this next part. Remember how I have moaned before about Nan whinging about certain toys of Lukas's because "there too noisy", bear in mind he plays with them UPSTAIRS and we can't hear our television with our bedroom door open because Nan's is so loud DOWNSTAIRS she's so hard of hearing it's not even funny, it's hearing just like Marks - of the selective variety i.e they hear what they want to hear!
Anyway that is not the point of today's moaning, she told Lukas off the other day for playing with his cars in the garden because "he was too noisy and it would annoy the neighbours" (dont even get me started), yet she has the bright idea to let Conor have tools and wood. Please consider the fact that this is the same child that is told don't go near the brook and has to my knowledge come home at least 3 times covered in crap from falling in the brook, is told don't go out of the street and when calling and being unable to find him we eventually find him playing near the main road about half a mile away, shall I go on or are you getting the picture. I adore Conor, but after Mark he is quite easily the most irresponsible person I have ever met, he just doesn't think. I have always said Conor is a lemming, if he was dared by his friends to jump off a bridge I would bet money on him doing it. So I live in a house with a 4 year old who doesn't want to sleep, an almost 30 year old who takes more effort to get into the bath than the 4 year old and is currently spending his days doing as little as he can get away with and driving me crazy and a batty 76 year old who is constantly cleaning, moaning about mess, saying she feels ill (because she won't let anyone help her, but moans constantly that she does everything) and bitching about my husband, and you wonder why I am this messed up? Mark went to the doctor and got signed off again, its astounding he goes to the doctor, spends 5 minutes or so and gets months off work when the problem is less depression and more bone idleness. I drag to the doctors over and over again seeing various different ones, answering the same shitty questions and getting the same shitty result. I'm 22 years old, and Nan has more mobility than I do even after a car accident when she was younger after which she was told she would never walk again, I have actual medical issues and cant get a doctor to do anything to help and I just think it sucks. I would be more than content just to be able to use my hands without pain right now. I would carry on tolerating the crap in this house if my hands would just stop hurting long enough for me to scrap without crying in pain. But since that's not going to happen right now I am going to settle for something else - a very large vodka!

I cant sleep

and the Gareth Gates CD is on, does that give you an indication of how this post os going to go?
Lukas goes back to school tomorrow, I am going to miss having him around even though he has spent nearly his entire half term downstairs in the garden lol. My hands are hurting and I have a rotten headache it's mostly behind my eyes, and down my neck. I fell over the bed earlier and have a lovely bruise across my foot. But would you like to know what's really bothering me? My hair is coming out in clumps again every time I touch it handfuls come out, it used to be like a big thick bush lol right down to my bum now it's really thin and I have to buy some thiner hairbands to try it back. It just makes me feel sad, because it feels like just another thing that I have no control over, my skin is horrible at the moment, dry and sore. Its all insignificant really compared to what some people are going through but it makes me feel sad. All I want is to feel well enough to make myself not look like I am ill, to be able to shave the jungle that is my legs, I swear if I leave it much longer there will be more hair on my legs than on my head lol. But there's not a chance I could hold a razor and have any skin left on my leg at the moment, if you had seen my attempt at writing a phone number down earlier you would see what I mean. Looking good makes you feel better, as I have said many times before - a kick ass outfit, killer shoes or just a little make-up makes even a wilderbeast like me look ok. If you don't even have the energy to get dressed let alone brush your hair you feel crap because you look crap. Shallow really aren't I, tough just because it sounds shallow doesn't mean it's not true. I haven't scrapped anything today and I feel pretty useless. We did manage to empty out the junk from under our bed, I am glad it's done but I am suffering still from getting up off the floor, it's hard work when you cant use your wrists to help. It was a bad idea but I am pleased it's done. We sorted through 4 boxes of junk as well. Tomorrow we are supposed to be starting the cupboard so if you don't hear from me for a while don't worry I am probably just buried alive under the avalanche of junk in the cupboard lol. I am going to give up writing this post now since it's already taken over an hour to write. Catch you tomorrow.

I have some layouts to share with you.

Credits:Layered template by Andrea Cox and Ray Of Light Charity kit contributions by Wendyzine, Neverland Scraps, Ilona Havenaar, Blythe Evans, Stacie Prinzo, Sarah Meyer, Ksharonk, Kari Henzelt, FaerOak, Brenda Miller, Bernadette Hunt, Agnes Lahur, Debbie McKenzie and Kimberly Stewart. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Paper Dark, Ribbon Dark and Glitter Dark. Font is Wasted Collection.
Credits: Landscape templates volume 6 template 4 by Deb Fisher and Ray Of Light Charity kit contributions by Amy Cheeseman, Agnes Lahur, Chris Turnbull, Sandra Boddington, Wendyzine, Tracy Ann Robinson, Peta Stokes, Kate Fairlie, Tonje Gram and Paisley Blues.Credits: Au Naturelle by Rina Kroes. Font is kimberly.

I have made a few others but I dont really feel like waiting for blogger to upload the images, they are just really simple layouts. I do have some stuff I want to talk about but right now last night's wrestling event One Night Stand is begging to be watched, I couldn't stay awake last night to watch it. Catch you later xx

A very sad day for digi scrappers everywhere

I meant to blog about this the other day but I forgot. So I will give you a little background first.
On the 25th May Carla Gibson, a designer at OScraps suffered a brain aneurysm. The digi community rallied around to offer whatever support they were able. That included - a special collaboration kit - Simple Pleasures for sale at ScrapArtist with 100% of the proceeds going to Carla and her family, A "Buy Carla Gibson" campaign encoraging people to purchase Carla's beautiful digital kits and a Friends and family section in the OScraps store featuring designs from designers both in the store and from across the digital community. But the most touching thing was the hundreds and hundreds of messages of support left for her family. Sadly Carla passed away yesterday (June 2nd) leaving behind a husband and a daughter. The only tiny ray of light in all this is that she fulfilled her wish to be an organ donor.
I didn't know Carla personally but I have been crying as I am sure many other people have. The thing is whether you know the person behind the designs or the layouts or not, you can appreciate the talent and beauty of their art. I now understand how people cry when they walk around art galleries or museums of famous artists. You didn't know them but it makes your heart ache to know that someone who created something so beautiful is no longer here. It really drives home why scrapbooking and preserving your memories is so damn important, Carla's legacy and beauty is preserved in her pages. Its like leaving a tiny part of herself for everyone especially her husband and family to cherish and help make sure she's never forgotten. I am a firm believer that art brings out the beauty of your own soul, people with beautiful souls make beautiful art and everyone has a beautiful soul in someone's eyes because every single person's art is beautiful to someone, whether they are a famous painter like monet or van gough or just a child drawing at school. I have linked you up to all the things that have been started to help Carla's family, if you knew her or not take the time to do something even if it's only letting the family know you are thinking of them. There are threads at OScraps here and at Digishop Talk here. You could also take part in the ultimate tribute of scrapping your memories with Carla's digital kits, that way the tender loving care she put into creating the kits will in turn help you preserve your own legacy,memories and love for your family.

I have always made it a point to tell the ones I love every single day that I love them, I have always been terrified about death especially someone I love not knowing that I love them before they die. I am really passionate about this, too many people assume that their loved ones know they are loved. Whether they know it or not it never hurts to tell them. This whole thing has made me think about Leo today, I started scrapping to help me, I needed to express the emotions and feelings I had. Now its pretty much the only thing I can do to ensure he's never forgotten.

I've been busy

Credits:Layered template by Traci Reed,Folded corner template by Jennilyn, Not so simple solids combo and Swass Masks by Shandy Vogt. Font is Pea Lis.
Credits:Layered template by Eva Kipler, Artistry Papers, Cool Blue Backpack, Fresh Backpack and Frosty by Krista Mettler, Distressed Alpha Brushes by Christine Smith and Bubbles Overlay by Antonio Rafaello.
I wonder if I can finish another one before I go to bed?

So did you notice?

I changed from a two column blog to a three column blog. I will get around to adding more digi stores I like to shop at at some point, but honestly I really prefer shops that use 2checkout or similar where I can use my debit card, without paypal and best of all without Mark knowing lol. It is my own money I am spending but he doesn't get that I "need" more stuff lol.

I have some layouts to share with you.

Credits: Layered template by Alma Townsend, Shimmer Strips by Karen Perreira (recoloured), Ghosts and Goblins Pass the Pixel by Various Designers, Spook Night by Linda Monthei, Spooktacular by Kathryn Mhire, Funky Watercolors and Really Funky Watercolors by Christina Renee and Grungy Alpha Brushes by Carla Gibson. Font is KGD Amber Print by Kimberly Geswein

Credits: Sketch 3 by Gina Miller (Team GMD challenge 8), May Surprise Box and Frayed Fabric by Gina Miller, Define-ing you black by Sue Cummings,Hole Punched Sampler by Jenn Patrick and Stamped Alpha by Loreta Labaca. Font is KGD Amber Print.

Off to scrap some more, back later.

Look at what my Loopy man made

yes that is yet another one of the dopey names we have for Lukas very fitting as well since he's completely loopy most of the time, lol.

Anyway on with the show and tell lol. He did this all by himself I opened the files, did some resizing for him and supervised to make sure he never touched anything he shouldn't (or clicked on my private stash folder, we wouldn't want Mark seeing all those unzipped files would we lol). Lukas picked exactly what he wanted to use, dragged it onto the canvas and clipped the papers to the layered template. The amazing part of it is it was easier to teach the 4 year old to use a layered template than it was to teach Mark lol with way less questions rofl.

Credits: Desktop calendar cheat sheet by Victoria Feemster, BoysBlues by Foxy Designs and Bugs Doodles by Carrie Bombria.

Please leave my little man some love xx

Yuck I hate the horrible things!

The horrible things being SPIDERS! They make my skin crawl, so what's prompted me to post about the gross things on my blog? The huge one that just casually strolled across my desk and make me barely restrain a scream. I was just about to lay on my pillows when I saw something out of the corner of my eye, I turned around and moved quicker than I have done for months, down to the other end of the bed, and sat there shaking until Mark killed it. Don't get me wrong if I see a spider outside it can stay in the land of the living, if it's on the ceiling I make Mark catch it and put it outside, I have also on occasion hoovered them up and then emptied the bag outside, but if they are near my bed they have to die. I have this paranoid thing that they will crawl on me, I can honestly put my hand on my heart and say if a spider crawled on me when I was asleep or any other time for that matter I would scream so loud the whole street would hear me. I keep looking behind me to make sure there isn't another one and even though I am shattered I can't sleep because I will have nightmares about it, evil little critters why can't they just bugger off back to the garden and stay there! I wish I knew where this fear came from I have never liked them but this is way beyond not liking them, I hate things that have power over me, I like to be in control and when it comes to spiders I am just not and it sucks!!!
I have something to show you but it deserves an icky spider free post of its own lol