But we will get to her in a minute.
Got up this morning after another bad night of stupid fits and stuff. No idea why they have got violent again all of a sudden. But that doesn't matter its becoming a regular occurance and we are getting used to it. Trying to do a nice thing and run the party box around to the little boy a few doors down. I fell over the crappy uneven path they installed. I seriously wonder why I try and do anything nice it always bloody backfires on me.
So we are now on way to Nans with that hurting and we go into Marks and Spencers and buy his cakes he had two one is the Cars one he wanted (that I want to scrap lol) and the other is so we can cut pieces of cake for the kids. I get to Nans and shes there Nans upset and I bite my tongue. She finally leaves and I get to ask Nan why shes upset. My mother has ripped up her little fencing she loves and thrown it away because apparently its "rubbish".
Shes watered Nans plants and ruined them and shes made Nan cry because of talking to her like shes an idiot, telling her she can't have her lights etc in the garden. Yes she can because they are specialist outdoor ones. For those of you that don't know Nan is a light fanatic the house is full, the garden is full and Christmas the house looks like Blackpool illuminations lol.
So we finally light Lukas's cake and take a few pictures.
Then add the final bits to the party boxes and head to my mothers. From the moment we walk into the house we get spoken to like crap. Not one of the kids except Aidan actually said Thank you. My mother makes nasty comments about everything she can think of and I again make the mistake of trying to be nice. "Lukas has a brand new pair of trousers I bought for Yvonnes funeral but they dont fit him, would you like them for Aidan" I may as well have just said please insult me. Her delightful response "Huh spose Lukas's ass is too f*****g fat for them" (I could swear in my blog but I am not her!) I hate her with all my heart and soul I really do. There was one small part of the day which made me smile she said to Lukas "Give me a kiss for your money, or i'll have it back" his response - "No, don't want to you can have it". I nearly died trying not to laugh out loud at him.
Got home and had a massive row with Mark. We have made up now but its not the point. So I feel yuck and I am tired, tomorrow is another day though and since she wont be in its bound to be better lol. But the worst thing is August is the month for birthdays in our family. So this month I am going to have to see her at least a few more times. My stepdad's birthday is the 8th, Her anniversary and Aidans birthday is the 9th, Callums birthday is the 15th and Jade and Kyle's birthday is the 20th. Thats 4 more visits to that hell hole in one month, I think I might need those anti-depressants after all. The only positive from today is I got some pictures of the kids which is nice evn though the baby hates me and he scowled at me the whole time I was there even when I was feeding him chocolate.
From Left to Right: Daniel, Aidan, Kyle, Callum, Jade and Keisha.
My family are horrible but I still miss being able to go and see the kids and playing with them. Makes me realise how nice Marks Mum and Dad are to me, even though I moan about them a lot they are a lot nicer to me than my mum is. I mean Marks mum even cleaned up that time I was sick everywhere in the middle of the night. My mum wouldn't have done that. I forgot to mention about Joshua didn't I, when we had had him to stay before (time before last) his groin area and his um boy bits were swollen and red, I mentioned this to them and said to get it checked at the doctors, thinking he might have just fallen over or something. They have only just taken him and theres a hole in one side, which has been letting fluid in. I haven't seen Josh this week but it must be really bad if they have finally taken him to a doctors. He has to go and see a paediatrician. Hate them as well. They dont bloddy deserve to have him. I so wish he was mine. I really miss Leo at the moment and so does Lukas. It winds me up that there are so many people who don't care for their kids and yet those kids don't die. Life sucks and on that note I am going before this entry turns into a book.
1 comment:
Why do you visit your Mom if she does not treat you with respect? I would rethink this, if I were you.
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