Sharing the layouts

that I want to show you while Mark is busy hacking up an old skirt of mine because our darling son wants to be a bumblebee not a cricket/grasshopper, I guess it's not really surprising since his current favourite dvd is Bee Movie lol. But he does have stuff for a grasshopper ready incase we can't get it finished or he changes his mind again lol. Mark's whinging is driving me slightly insane. If I hear anymore excuses why he can't cut a skirt into strips I might have to hurt him a lot lol. Sorry I'm back now I started this post hours ago first I was typing and the electricity went out, then I got wrapped up (literally lol) in glue lines and fabric. I did finish the Bee outfit but convinced Lukas to wait until the weekend to wear it, when I have had a little more time to replace the glue I have used with some stitching lol. I'll be sure to photograph it once I have made it presentable enough for him to wear. He was thrilled with the little headbands I decorated though, and has been happily buzzing around the house wearing them lol. He has a one I covered with brown fibre and twisted some things from my craft box around for the antennae (grasshopper) and another I covered in black ribbon and yellow furry pipecleaners with more stuff from my craft box for antennae (bumblebee). Lukas has given me something to think about though he want's a bee sting lol, I am trying to think how I can go about making one for him. But anyway enough rambling he's good to go for tomorrow so how about I finally get around to showing you those layouts I was on about lol. I think there are 3 I haven't shared with you.

Ok this first one was a poem I liked and some of the amazing flower photographs, Mark and Lukas took for me on that day they went out together to feed the ducks at the park without me.Credits: Layered template SBB 5th Birthday and Summer Serenade by Amy Bleser. Font is DJB Writes A Lot by Darcy Baldwin.

Journalling is a poem called To Flower! by Duncan Wylie.

This second one is just some random photos I took of Lukas one day when he was messing around before he went to school. I like scrapping silly things he does they make me smile.Credits: Layered template ({Still} Mixin' It Up, Template 4) by Chrissy W and Boys Room Mini and Torn Notebook Alpha by Amy Bleser. Font is DJB Megan by Darcy Baldwin.

Journalling reads: Just messing around when you were supposed to be getting dressed to go to school. Mornings are never boring with you are they!

This last one is one right from my heart, a page I wrote to my brothers and sisters. Hopefully when they are older they might be able to make their own decision to read it or not without being afraid of the consequences from my mum of talking to me, she would make their life hell!
Credits: Layered template ({Still} Mixin' It Up, Template 3) and Clearly Inked And Stapled Alpha by Chrissy W and Daddy's Girl and Daddy's Girl Addon by Amy Bleser. Font is DJB Nicole by Darcy Baldwin.

Journalling reads: It amazes me how many times I have cried my eyes out because of my lack of photography skills. It’s always been too easy to assume, I can always take more photos only for something to go wrong. I end up with a few photos that are worth more than gold to me, but as far as scrapbooking is concerned they are almost always useless. I want to be able to make layouts about you all, my brothers and my sisters. I want to see you and hug you. Want to be the only one who ever loved you just like I used to be. I want you to know that your birthdays are still on my calendar same as they always were same as they always will be. When I used to go out more I would find myself looking at girly things in shops that would be perfect for Jade and Keisha, or seeing pokemon cards I know Kyle would love. I wonder how Aidan’s doing with his walking sticks now and his physio. I think about how big Daniel must be now and how much he has to have changed. I hope that Callum isn’t being bullied at school any more. I wish I could see the new baby and hold her wish I could be the only one to ask you all how you are coping with her being around. Sometimes my mind wonders to thinking about you all being left alone while she’s off on another of her endless shopping trips. Do you miss me and Lukas like we miss you? Do you think about us? I considered writing to you all but knew that she would have ripped them up in spite. I couldn’t bear to get any of you in trouble so I remained silent and distant from you. Maybe she’s made you hate me by now, telling you lies like she is so good at, twisting everything little thing and making out like she’s the one in the right even when she never is. She’s always been evil and warped, but you know that as well as I do. I wonder how many days you have had off of school to cover bruises from her vicious temper. How many days have you cried yourself to sleep after she’s screamed, shouted, and swore herself hoarse because she has no cigarettes. Nan saw you Jade and she told me how poorly you looked. How mum is no longer concerned about the clothes any of you wear, she’s too busy revelling in the attention she’s getting over the baby. I hate that you have nobody to protect you anymore now that Gavin and Darren are gone and I am not around. I’m sorry truly sorry that I am missing out on seeing you grow up, and that I am not around for you to rely on and talk to. Will you ever forgive me? So many questions and unfortunately most of them will never get answered will they. I really wish there was a way I could support you and show you how much I still love you all. But for now there isn’t i’ll just keep hoping one day we will find a way for me to make it up to you all. From top to bottom left: Callum, Kyle and Jade. From top to bottom right: Keisha,Aidan and Daniel. Taken at Lukas’s birthday tea party on 5th August 2006.