Has it really been that long?

Oh dear, sorry about that. I wish I could tell you that I have been really busy and haven't had time to write a blog post but as you already know I don't like telling lies lol. I wish I could tell you that I have lots to share with you and tell you but that's not really true either. I also wish I could tell you that I have been busy scrapping and I have lots of layouts to share with you, there are a few layouts I have managed to do this month to share with you but that's not the reason either. To be honest the reason I haven't blogged is really simple I haven't had anything to blog about. I haven't been spending much more than the time it takes to check my email on the computer each day, partly because sitting at my desk isn't really easy at the moment thanks to the constant headaches and pain everywhere, but it wouldn't be very honest if I didn't admit that although that part of the reason the majority of it is I don't want to be on the computer. The pregnancy seems to have drained anything resembling motivation from my body, I am tired all the time and for some reason unknown to me I seem to have retreated away from people in general. I have no desire to post on forums or talk to my online friends at the moment. They haven't done anything wrong, and I don't really feel more depressed than usual so I don't really have an explanation. Maybe it's because I have nothing to say I haven't been out of the house except for appointments or maybe it's because I am feeling so ill and I don't feel like talking. I really hate to admit this but I haven't really missed it as much as I would have done even a few months ago. There was a time when I was inseperable from my computer I checked emails a couple hundred times a day because I didn't want anyone to have to wait for a response. Now it kind of seems unimportant. If you ask me what I have been doing instead I would probably shrug my shoulders because I really don't know. I have listened to a few audiobooks on my ipod but that's usually while Mark is watching television and Lukas is on the computer. We have started sorting a few things out in the house but nothing major and that was all done in a few days. The time seems to go by just as quick with nothing getting achieved even when I don't use the computer. Anyway I just wanted to check in and let you know why I have been kind of distant I guess I thought once I started writing this post I might understand the reasons too but I am just as clueless now as I was when I started it. I will leave you with those layouts and hope that next time I blog I actually have something to blog about. There are 6 layouts in total to share with you, maybe that tells you how little time I have been on the computer better than all the words managed to, hopefully I will find a way to get back to something more normal soon.

I can't remember what all of these layouts were done for so I am just going to post them with the credits and I will come back another time and add details and enabling when I remember too.


Credits: Layered template (Round We Go Rectangle, Template 2), Lizzie May and CU Mixin' It Up 2 all by Chrissy W, Label Me 01 and The Grunged Dot Papers by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Happy Thoughts 2009 (January, Day 26) by Sue Cummings. Font is FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat by Fontologie.

Journalling reads: You decided it might be funny to run around the house with your cereal bowl on your head. You are such a silly boy Lukas! 22nd July '06.

Enabling: Round We Go Rectangle Templates, Lizzie May, CU Mixin' It Up 2 by Chrissy W available here, here and here, Label Me 01 and The Grunged Dot Papers by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here and here, Happy Thoughts 2009 January by Sue Cummings available here and FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat Font by Fontologie available here.


Credits: Layered template (February Designer Sampler Template) by Chrissy W, Frostee by Mandy McQuillis (Mandy Mystiques), (Happy Thoughts 2009 (January, Day 11) by Sue Cummings, I'm Felting 01 Styles by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Pen Pressure Styles by Sonia Harvy (Saab). Font is DJB A Bit Of Flaire by Darcy Baldwin.

Journalling reads: I’ll let you in on a little secret. The whole time that I was trying to concentrate on saying my wedding vows. The only thing I really wanted to do was look back at you. I have never been in the situation before where you are so close, yet out of reach to me. In my head I was wishing the ceremony would hurry up and be over so I could have you back with me where you belong. When you couldn’t sit still anymore and wondered over to where we were sitting and signing the register, I don’t think I have ever been so glad to see you in my life. Once I had you sat on my lap again, I was finally able to relax and enjoy the moments that made me legally a married woman. I don’t know why it is but when I have you close to me I feel calm, like I can take on anything life can throw at me. I wasn’t worried anymore about tripping over the train on the dress, or forgetting the words I was supposed to say. At that moment I just felt content I had everything I could ever want in the world, You and Daddy right there next to me. and that made me feel happier than I could ever begin to find words to describe.

Enabling: February Designer Sampler Template by Chrissy W available here, Frostee by Mandy McQuillis (Mandy Mystiques) available here, (Happy Thoughts 2009 January by Sue Cummings available here, I'm Felting 01 Styles by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here, Pen Pressure Styles by Sonia Harvy (Saab) available here and DJB A Bit Of Flaire Font by Darcy Baldwin available here.


Credits: Based on 365 Sketch 1 by Laura White (Princesslala) and Out Of This World by Royanna Lea Fritschmann. Fonts are Castellar and FO Giggles by Fontologie. Photo edited using 12+12 Presets (VintageLE) by Sarah Ji from Preset Heaven.

Journalling reads: Whenever you get out the construction toys I can’t help but watch. I love to see your little imagination at work. You sit for hours and mess around with bits and pieces to create anything from cars to robots, from boats to spaceships. But I think the best part is listening to you make up stories to go with your creations. Giving them voices and really making them come alive. I love how in your eyes their are no limits to what you create except what you can imagine.

Enabling: 365 Sketch 1 by Laura White (Princesslala) found here, Out Of This World by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here, Castellar Font available here, FO Giggles Font by Fontologie available here and 12+12 Presets by Sarah Ji available here.


Credits: Layered template (Round We Go Rectangle, Template 1), Paper Cutters (Huge Scallop Paper Rectangle) and It's My Day by Chrissy W and Checklists Brushes by Katie Pertiet. Font is FO Free Refill by Fontologie.

Journalling reads: Uncle Aidan's Birthday Party. August 2003.

Enabling: Round We Go Rectangle Templates, Paper Cutters and It's My Day by Chrissy W available here, here and here, Checklists Brushes by Katie Pertiet available here and FO Free Refill Font by Fontologie available here.


Credits: Layered template (Template Challenge 15) by Chrissy W and Our House by Chrissy W and Angie Kovacs. Fonts are FO Textura Traced and FO Printing Primer In Between both by Fontologie.

Journalling reads: I love this photograph of you. It was taken when we were living with Nannie Freda & Grampy Andy. Daddy had the camera on the wrong setting and the shutter stuck as well, but you look so cute + adorable peering out of the back door with your bottle. The look on your face is just precious. I only wish I could remember what you were looking at in the back garden.

Enabling: Template Challenge 15 by Chrissy W available here, Our House by Chrissy W and Angie Kovacs available here, FO Textura Traced Font by Fontologie available here and FO Printing Primer In Between Font by Fontologie available here.


Credits: Layered template (Template Challenge 14) by Chrissy W, Our House by Chrissy W and Angie Kovacs and Being Green Alpha by Angie Kovacs. Font is FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat.

Enabling: Template Challenge 14 by Chrissy W available here, Our House by Chrissy W and Angie Kovacs available here, Being Green Alpha by Angie Kovacs available here and FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat Font by Fontologie available here.

Two layouts to share

I don't really have anything to say today but I do have those 2 layouts I did the other night to share. Both of these were made using Chrissy's new Angie'licious 4 templates. It's nice to have finally scrapped something pregnancy related. I only wish I had more things that available to scrap about this pregnancy but I have just been too ill to care about taking photographs (not that I really have anything to photograph yet, like I said the bumps are all my own lol) or journalling about my feelings. I have bought some clothes but it's all white and fairly uninteresting. I can't wait until I can order proper baby clothes, little outfits etc not babygros. I will keep this brief because despite today being a really bad day as far as how I am feeling there are a few things I need to get done today before I retreat to my bed.

Credits: Layered template (Angie'licious 4, Template 1) by Chrissy W, Cottage Chic by Megan Farrow (Flergs), I'm Talking 'bout - Preggo Wordart by Jodie McNally and I'm Felting 01 Styles by Royanna Lea Fritschmann. Font is FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat by Fontologie.

Enabling: Angie'licious 4 Templates by Chrissy W available here, Cottage Chic by Megan Farrow (Flergs) available here, I'm Talking 'bout - Preggo Wordart by Jodie McNally available here, I'm Felting 01 Styles by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here and FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat Font by Fontologie available here.


Credits: Layered template (Angie'licious 4, Template 4) by Chrissy W, First Kiss Of Spring by Megan Farrow (Flergs) and Nicole Seitler (Sugarplum Paperie) and I'm Talking 'bout - Preggo Wordart by Jodie McNally. Font is FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat by Fontologie.

Enabling: Angie'licious 4 Templates by Chrissy W available here, First Kiss Of Spring by Megan Farrow (Flergs) and Nicole Seitler (Sugarplum Paperie) available here, I'm Talking 'bout - Preggo Wordart by Jodie McNally available here and FO Howie's Stamps Lowfat Font by Fontologie available here.

Where to start?

I wish I had the time to sit here and type a long blog post, full of rubbish about how well the pregnancy is going, and how well I am feeling etc but I don't tell lies on my blog. This pregnancy is just like the previous 4 lol it sucks! I am missing my computer and my internet friends, I am missing the forums and the chatter but more than anything else I am missing the scrapping. I need the creative outlet that it gives me, I hate letting my CT's down and to be honest scrapping just makes me happy. I have been lucky yesterday and some of today that I felt a little better, enough to sit on the bed with the laptop for a little while. Caught up on some emails and cleared some blogs but no scrapping. I did manage to do a tiny but of scrapping yesterday on the desktop and I paid for it by being up nearly all of last night in pain lol. *sigh* I'm sorry I know this is a very whingy post and this pregnancy is a huge blessing (or at least the end result will be) but for now I am feeling very depressed and miserable, I am missing my life and my routine. I get kind of grumpy when I can't do anything. Mark has been out all day and today just seems to have been a bad day. I have been on a bit of a short fuse all day to be honest, when we were making dinner I couldn't open the box of stock cubes and ended up launching them across the kitchen, maybe that tells you how fed up I am. *sigh* I haven't ever liked February much we have the first anniversary of Mark's mum dying this week. There are appointments that need to be attended for both me and Mark. Lukas looks like he may be coming down with something, he's been very quiet and spent the whole day alternating between playing the computer and being curled up under the duvet in my bed with me. This month we also have Valentines Day, Gaiebraille's anniversary, Mark's mum and dad's wedding anniversary (although redundant I still feel it deserves mentioning) and various other things. All I really want is to feel more like myself so I can start clearing some of the backlog I am really tired of feeling sick, being in pain and having no energy all the time. I suppose it really all comes down to, is the simple fact that although I think the baby is totally worth anything I have to go through I was kind of hoping all the pregnancy crap would come a little later. It would be nice to have a real bump to go along with all the problems at least then people wouldn't just assume that it was all laziness, although then I suppose I would get what I usually do which is people saying I am "putting it all on for attention" because they don't believe pregnancy could cause all of these issues. Sometimes I just wish I could be pregnant like a normal person instead of all of the complications and illness. I am going to stop whinging now it really is time to get off the laptop, at least there is a film on the tv I want to watch, they are showing the St Trinian's film tonight and I am going to watch it with Mark and my duvet lol. Hopefully next time I manage to get on here I will be feeling a bit more myself or at least not such a miserable cow.