ADSR Challenge 4

Created for the 4th ADSR Challenge - Scrap a layout containing the word goal and a prominent letter G.

Credits: Layered template by Janet Phillips and Rust-Ease, Gotta Luv Him, Lil' Fan Fair, Ziggety Mess Lines, Wildflowers, Ribbon Wraps Large, French Countryside collaboration with Shabby Princess, Fresh Clean Linens Greens, June Collaboration Funky Playground Designs, Rustic Plaids, CT Challenge kit, Graffiti Alpha Worn Brushes, Hand Stamped Alpha brushes and Shabby Stitches ZigZag all by Christina Renee.

Traci Murphy Dropshadows cardboard light, Thin Light Stitching Light, Metals Light, Flower Light and Paint Light. Font is DJB KEELYB.

Journalling reads:To some people the goals that I have for myself will seem silly. Because for them they are just normal everyday things that they do without even thinking about it. But for someone like me they require so much more energy than I have they could easily be compared to scaling Mount Everest. Everything is so much harder when you are dealing with a body that doesn’t do what you want it to do. Even though there are days when it seems like an impossible dream I have faith that with babysteps and taking each day as it comes I will eventually reach my ulitmate goal of being able to take Lukas to school in the morning and then picking him up in the afternoon. I am proud of everything I do achieve, I know I can do anything if I keep trying and never give up hope.

Feeling destructive

When I am miserable I always do something I will regret, usually I chose shopping for stuff that I don't really need, tonight since I am out of cash I chose the lots of calories option lol. One banana milkshake complete with aerosol cream and a galaxy ripple smashed over the top. Very nice it was too lol. I am deeply depressed tonight, I have spent a lot of today crying. I wouldn't know where to start to talk about it. I just can't see anyway to make things better, so for now my allies are crying, calories and criticism of myself for being so pathetic!

ADSR Challenge 3

Created for the 3rd ADSR Challenge - Create a fairytale or storybook layout with the theme of either Once Upon A Time, Three Wishes or If I were King/Queen/Princess/Prince of the world.

Credits: Ribbon and Frame from Precious Angel Memories Blue by Kim Brodelet everything else is by me. Fonts are Vladimir Script and 2 Peas Mademoiselle.

Journalling reads: Once upon a time a beautiful baby boy was born, when his mother gazed upon him she was sure she must be dreaming. This was not a baby she saw before her it was a tiny little angel. She swore to hide her thoughts and keep it a secret, she was scared that one day the angels would notice he was missing, if they did they would surely claim him back. As time went on she hid her secret well, everyone believed that he was nothing more than a beautiful baby boy, with a family that adored him with their heart and soul. One day the little angel became sick and the mother felt helpless, she knew that it was not within her power to save the angel. She decided that it was time for her to return him to where he belonged. She released him from the body that was causing him so much pain and allowed his soul to return to heaven. For days and months following the angel’s return to heaven she was so very very sad. Even though she knew it was impossible she wished with all her heart that he could be returned to her. One day she stumbled across something called scrapbooking and realised she could write to the angel and let him know how much she was missing him. As the words flowed from her heart the hurt she had felt was replaced by a feeling of peace. She knew that he was listening and would always be watching over her.

Another quick layout share

Credits: Layered template by Eva Kipler, Is for labels and Get It Started by Meredith Fenwick and Utopia, 5th Avenue Papers, Ribbon Corners and Swirly Twirly Ribbons all by Shandy Vogt. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Fancy Ribbon Light, Chipboard Light, Brad Light, Cardstock Light and Glitter Light. Font is Pea Mandy

Quick layout share

Credits: Layered template by Theres and 52 Weeks of Inspiration by Sue Cummings and Lauren Reid. Fonts are AL Flighty, Daddy, 2Peas Rickety and AL Eyewitness.

Got Stuff to talk about Yay!

Let's start with the piece of news that excites me the most, tomorrow is Lukas's last day at school. I am so excited to because 1. I Have him all to myself for 6 weeks! I hate sharing him with anyone especially that silly teacher, which leads me to my second point, 2. Tomorrow is her last day! she's leaving *insert happy dance here*Hopefully the next teacher won't assume that because Lukas is quiet, he's stupid. She's spent a whole year telling me that Lukas has "Special needs" she's wrong he doesn't he's just a cheeky little monkey who will (and frequently does) argue that black is white. It's taken me since October last year to work out why she thought he was special needs because stupid mummy that I am I assumed he was only annoying to me. Want an example if you ask him where milk comes from he says "Tesco" and silly mummy that I am I giggled so now he thinks it's funny to say that and the school assumes that he doesn't understand that milk comes from cows before it gets to Tesco. Another example is what colour is the sky he will tell you green and the grass is blue again they think he doesn't know the real colours when in reality he is just a wind up merchant, he likes the extra attention he gets when he answers wrong so he does it on purpose. I've also caught on that if you ask these questions when he wants to do something else he will give you the right answer because he wants to be left alone lol. They also said he doesn't play with other children when I know that he does, I have to put up with the screaming every time Ella or anyone else leaves. So now I have 6 weeks to meet all their stupid targets and prove beyond a doubt that he's not stupid he's just a little monster lol. I tried to be prepared this time I got Nan to pick up the sweets for the end of term and Lukas's gift to the kids for his birthday when they were on offer a while back. I asked her where they were and she's can't remember where she's put them. So off went Mark to Tesco and bought more. As usual we leave everything until the absolute last moment. But after spending the evening printing, cutting, assembling, gluing and stapling we now have 24 little bags of sweets for the kids, each containing 2 bags of Haribo sweets and 23 wrapped lollipops (there were only 23 in the bag lol) luckily Lukas doesn't like them and his buddy Morgan has already finished school and is on holiday in Florida so there are enough. I used Ilona Havenaar's Child's Play Wrapper Set from Andrea Nelson Designs. available here

If your wondering I used the yellow lollpop cover and the bright orange bag with a few modifications.

Lukas's birthday is 3rd August that's next Friday!!!!! Where the heck did 5 years go??? Leo would have been 3 this year it just doesn't seem possible. It's all gone in such a blur, there's so much I can't remember and so much have missed and it makes me sad. I don't have any layouts to share today so I am off to bed. Catch you tomorrow.

Just a quick layout share

Credits: Large Photo Phenoms Layered Templates template 4 by Maria LaFrance,Take Measure by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Sparkler 'N' Pop by Digital Reality Bytes (Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Princess LaLa - Laura White). Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Glitter Dark, Brad Light and Cardstock Dark. Fonts are DJB PAMB and Hotel Coral Essex.

ADSR Challenge 2

Credits: Layered template by Jen Caputo, Duct Tape Stars by Ashley Olson,Christmas Doodles by Christina Bartolomew, Christmas Doodles by Nightwolf Designs and French Countryside, Glitter Frames, Scatched Solids, Shabby Tags, Tied Ribbon Wrappers Ribbed, Urban Buds and Dream Solids Brights all by Christina Renee. Font is CK Friend.

Want to know how tired my little man was yesterday?

He fell asleep on the kitchen floor!

doesn't he look adorable. How I carried him upstairs I do not know, he's like a baby elephant lol.Then when I went downstairs and came back up he had been for a wee while still asleep and gone to sleep on the bathroom floor. What else did I do yesterday? um not a lot Lukas was off school and I am sick again so I slept for a lot of it and Nan watched him. Have no layouts to share, haven't done anything so am off to try and change that now.

Don't you just hate it when

you see something you like in a store, check your digi stash to see if you have it not find it and then go and buy it only to find that you did actually have it but some person who shall remain nameless has filed it wrong when he has done some downloading for you. It's a bummer.I so badly need to get organized so I can find everything. I had so much tagged in ACDSEE but because of all the computer issues I have started from scratch and it just seems to take so much longer when you are sitting there thinking damn i've already done this twice!

Off to try and sleep. catch you tomorrow.

Ahoy Matey's

So the Pirate Party I was talking about in the last post. Basically it was a picnic for both of the foundation stage classes that parents were invited to attend. The kids all had to go to school dressed as "pirates, mermaids or a sea creature". I bought Lukas a very cool Pirate outfit ages ago. Being the insane mummy that I am I also made a treasure chest full of treasure (have you ever tried threading beads when you are exhausted it takes hours lol). I also made him a little hook. We had to be there at 2:30pm, the kids came out and did a little parade (few laps around their play area lol) they had some food and played music. It was nice to see all the different costumes and there were some fab ones! I only got a few pictures though, I will obviously dress him up again in a few days and take some proper pictures it's so hard at school especially when they are walking around and so many parents give you dirty looks because they think you are photographing their child. I love these events because I can stage them again at home and get the photos I really wanted at my own pace. Wanna see my little pirate?
Doesn't he look cute, even though his bandana isn't on right and he doesn't have the pirate hat on or his hook. He was alright while he was walking around in the parade then he burst into tears and said he didn't feel well. I knew he wasn't right he has had a nasty cough for 3 days and I only sent him yesterday because otherwise he wouldn't have got to help make the party foods. He's not going tomorrow, because they were all supposed to be going on a whole school picnic, he didn't want to go and they said he could stay home. The picnic has now been changed to an inschool picnic because of the weather but he's still staying home because he has a rotten cold bless him.

On the way home he fell over and grazed his knee, then just to finish the day off he had a little accident on the trampoline, we were messign around, I tripped on my jeans and knocked him over and he did this (im too lazy to rotate it today)
Nasty isn't it. He has it all bandaged up now and doesn't seem bothered by it at all. He had his little friend Morgan around to play yesterday they had a great time. We even had a special visit from next door's white rabbit bubbles, which pooped all over the trampoline lol. I had to scrub it with baby wipes. I don't have much else to say today but I might be back later with a layout share if Lukas cooperates lol.

Today blog I am going to be.........

Stressed and Depressed!

I got my period last night, and I had honestly forgotten what a pain in the bum it is, I haven't had one since October  when I had my Depo injection. Anyway normally I don't get any pain or none that I notice in between all the other pain I feel daily . This time though the pain in my stomach is worse than when I had my boys. It's kept me awake for the last few nights and I am slowly going insane through lack of sleep. It's not just the lack of sleep though it's Mark as well he is driving me up the wall and I am  I don't know how to change him and their are days when I could quite happily pack his bags and file for a divorce! That's the first time I have admitted on my blog how bad things are. There are times when I swear he is trying to drive me crazy so I will divorce him and he can go running back to his mum's and sit on his backside doing nothing forever. My list of complaints goes something like this:

1. He never takes his washing downstairs, he doesn't even put it into the washing basket it's dumped as he takes it off onto the floor, where it stays until I finally give in and move it.

2. He has to be forced to take a bath, I only have the energy for that row once/twice a week so the rest of the time he stinks, really really badly. Nan is constantly moaning at me about it.

3. He will eat packet after packet of crisps, drink bottle after bottle of coke and he dumps all the rubbish onto the floor. I have tried leaving the bin their, a black sack their it doesn't matter if the bin is closer he still drops it on the floor.

4. He forgets absolutely everything. I can send him to Tesco for two things, with a list and he will still come back without them. It's not just shopping, he can be asked to do something finally get off his butt to go and do it and come back a long time after, ask him where whatever he went to get is and he just says I forgot.

5. The television is on constantly, day, night, weekend whenever, and he stares blankly at it. What's on the TV you ask? Sport always bloody sport. He watches every kind of sport known to mankind. I tried to compromise and say he could watch all but cricket, tennis, golf, darts and snooker because they are duller than ditchwater, but it still doesn't work he still put them on and causes a row. He also plays the playstation2 and/or laptop for hours on end ignoring everything and everyone. Including me and Lukas.

6. He can never ever take his dirty dishes downstairs, he will leave them everywhere, on my desk, on the floor. They also stay there until I move them.

7. He never closes anything, for example as I am sitting here now all three of his large clothes drawers are wide open where he has taken things out of them and walked away. This issue applies to not putting things back either. He leaves cupboard doors open, drawers open, scissors with blades open on the kitchen side. I could go on forever about that.

8. He doesn't listen to a word I say to him, and then when I ask him if he's listening he bites my head off. The alternative version is when he answers ok to anything I say, that drives me crazy and makes me want to smash his face in! I usually end up screaming something along the lines of "No it's not bloody ok you ignorant git".

9. He treats me and Lukas like something he has stepped in. I honestly wouldn't talk to a dog like he talks to me or Lukas. He's snappy and irritable all the time. Any little thing we say can get our heads bitten off. He talks down to everyone like he is superior or something. Constantly interrupting other people's conversations to insert some boring/irrelevant or just completely wrong information. He does it to everyone including the doctors when I go for my appointments.

10. The sheer and utter laziness. I can ask him to do the same thing over and over and over again and either I get ignored completely, get the "I'll do it in a minute" (you can easily expect that job to get done an hour later minimum after that phrase". When he does do anything he only does a half job of it and then doesn't understand why I am pissed at him. The one thing we ask him to do on a regular basis is sort the rubbish we have to recycle certain things, so they have to go into different bins, he spends 5 minutes in the garden then comes in and says it's done, knowing there's no way he could do it that quick I go and check and see that all he has done is put the right stuff on top of the wrong stuff so when the boxes/bins are opened they look right.

I think I have made my point about how bad he is to live with. I have a bombsite of a bedroom, I am feeling ill all the time and I just can't cope anymore. All I am ever doing is arguing with someone. Either with him or with Nan because of him. I am fed up with living in mess and being snapped at and moaned at day in day out. It's too much to bear especially when you feel so exhausted mentally and physically.

I have another post to do all about what I have done today (been to Lukas's Pirate Party at school) with some photos to post. So I will do that now.

ADSR Week 1

Created for the ADSR season 2 1st Challenge.Credits: Layered template by Jennifer Schmitt (Collection 1 set 3 template 4 rotated by me) and Bookplate Alpha, Book Plates Square, Digiscrap Wraps, Lil' Fan Fair Elements and French Countryside collaboration with Shabby Princess all by Christina Renee.

Why is it that every time I make a layout with Christina Renee's goodies, I love what I have created, I don't sit and fiddle with them for ages trying to make myself like them, I love each one as soon as they are complete.

The final CRD Challenge

This one was due to take place last Wednesday but the host was sick so it was delayed. I am really sad that they are over they have been so much fun to do.

Credits: Cheater Template 8B by Jennifer Layden (Jennilyn Designs) and Funky Watercolours, Dream Solids Bright, Dream Solids Pastel, French Countryside and Dream Elements all by Christina Renee and Colour Fade Photo Action by Lauren Barden.

I did find one problem with using Live writer for my posts - the dictionary is American it keeps telling me I have spelt stuff wrong that's right to me lol. I just keep adding the words to dictionary and it seems to be leaving them alone. It also appears it doesn't want to publish my pictures. So I am going to go back into blogger and add it. Will be back later.

Testing something

I am experimenting with Windows Live Writer. It seems like a very clever little gadget. I love that I can do this and writing in my own handwriting is very cool. Now to see what it looks like on my blog.I am very impressed lol. So if I remember from now on I will do my blogging with that (wish I'd known about it before blogger introduced the autosave I lost so many posts when blogger decided to just close/freeze or be a pig). I have to admit the feature I like best is the built in spell check that's great for someone who types late at night like I do. Anyway it's nearly 6am so I am off to bed catch you later xx

The Layout Share

Credits: Simple Pleasures (From July My Digital Muse Grab Bag) by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Layered Template by Traci Reed (Rectangles 2 Template 6).

You don't know me (fun questions)

I read this on Bunny Cates Blog and thought it might be fun
01.WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Nope my mum just has an obsession with strange names.
02.WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Yesterday
03.DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I used to when I could hold a pen and write something other than scrawl.
04.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? I don't have one.
05.DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yep 1 boy called Lukas who will be 5 in 18 days eeek! I also have 3 angel babies Gaiebraille, Leo and Ambrose.
06.IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I don't know I don't make friends easily.
07.DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Only 90% of the time lol.
08.DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yep
09.WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Not in a million years!
10.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Cheerios
11.DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Nope I usually wear boots which have zips and I only wear those when I absolutely have to, hate wearing shoes (love buying them though lol)
12.DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? I am mentally strong, because I am stubborn as hell and I refuse to be defeated by the crap life throws at me. Physically not anymore being sick sucks!
13.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Plain Mcflurry's from Macdonalds *drool*
14.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Their shoes
15.RED OR PINK? Red definately hate pink
16.WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Medical issues
17.WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Leo (my angel baby I lost at three months old)
18.DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? I'm not sending it to anyone lol
19.WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Im in UK so pants would be knickers but since it's an American question I don't have any trousers on and it's 4am so why would I have shoes on? lol.
20.WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Bowl of cheerios lol.
21.WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Internet Radio
22.IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Right now probably blue because I am feeling depressed tonight. It's too hot in here and I can't sleep.
23.FAVORITE SMELLS? Tea, Pefume, Bread, Baby Bath, Talcum Powder, Fabric Softner.
24.WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Lisa when she called for Nan
25.DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? I read this on Bunny's Blog I don't dislike her, don't really know her but she seems nice enough.
26.FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Speedway, Football, Ice Hockey.
27.HAIR COLOR? Dark Brown
28.EYE COLOR? Dark Brown
29.DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope
30.FAVORITE FOOD? Pasta, Cereal, Chinese takeaway
31.SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings.
32.LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Bridget Jones 2: The Edge Of Reason.
33.WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? It's a grey nightshirt with pink hearts and snoopy on it.
34.SUMMER OR WINTER? Neither lol. Summer sucks because it's too bright, Winter sucks because the cold makes everything hurt worse. lol
35.HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs from Lukas.
36.FAVORITE DESSERT? Deep fried Marsbar or pineapple fritter. mmmmm.
37.MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? No-one
38.LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Mark (My Husband incase you don't read this blog very often)
39.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? None can't focus on the pages lol.
40.WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? My hand lol It's a plain balck one with wrist support.
41.WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T. V LAST NIGHT? Dexter that's a very cool program, brilliantly written
42.FAVORITE SOUND? My music.
43.ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Not really old enough to know much about either of them, heard lots of good beatle cover songs though so will say beatles.
44.WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Cyprus.
45.DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Digital scrapbooking.
46.WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Oxford
47.WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? anyones.

If you answer them after reading mine leave me a comment and I will come check out your answers. Have another layout to share in a minute.

Yesterday's CRD Challenge

Created for the Christina Renee Grand Opening 6th Challenge (Saturday) - Template

Credits: Provided template by Natalie Bird (Natalie3son) and Dream Solids Bold, Dream Solids Bright, Dream Elements, Tied Ribbon Wrappers Satin, GetRDone Stitches, French Countryside, CT Challenge Kit and DigiScrap Tabs all by Christina Renee.

Crazy Crazy Challenge

Created for the Christina Renee Grand Opening 7th Challenge (Sunday) - Crazy use this provided list of items on a layout:

have a solid blue background
have a photo in each corner
have a title that is vertical on the page and is the name of a John Travolta movie (here is a list if you need it)
have 6 flowers on it (and 6 flowers only), each a different color
have a frame on it that has no photo in it
have some lime green writing on it
have 2 different alphas on it
have the word 'KAPOW!' on it
have 3 different colors of stitching on it
have something plaid or gingham on it
not use any patterned paper
only use Times New Roman as a font not use any staples

Credits: Really Funky Watercolours, Dream Elements, Ribbon Tabs Gingham, GetRDone Stitches, Shabby Flowers, Vintage Blooms, Urban Buds, Old News Alpha Brushes and CT Challenge kit (Black worn tape numbers) all by Christina Renee. Font is Times New Roman.

We've been fighting

There have been a lot of tears shed in this house since yesterday. We have argued like crazy about what happened yesterday. I am not sure what I want to do next. I am so frustrated with Mark, especially with his could care less attitude. I am just feeling really drained and sad about it all. I had some bad seizures last night. Stress always seems to make them worse. I did some digi stash  shopping last night, as you may have noticed when things get me down I go shopping. I now own everything in Christina Renee's store. I thought it would cheer me up but it's not working. I normally love working with Christina's goodies as you have seen from my last few layouts I have posted but I can't seem to muster any motivation to scrap or be happy. Music's not working either. Mark has redone my computer yet again. I got smart with the way I set things up so apart from the inconvenience of having to reinstall my Photoshop etc every time it's pretty painless. I don't really have anything else to say at the moment.

We interupt the posting of layouts to deliver this moan

Today is Friday the 13th and damn don't I know about it. Was awake all night and then about 5am decided to go downstairs for a while. First I decided to make Lukas's lunch and realised Mark hadn't remembered to get the ham out of the freezer, minor panic (Lukas only eats ham sandwiches) and then decided will just make bread and butter. Then decide to make some breakfast for me, toast's out because bread if frozen Lukas has different bread then we do so decide on cereal. Only Mark never mentioned that we had nearly used it and obviously Lukas will want something before school. Plan B make ready brek and then discover we have no sugar. I only add a little bit but I can't eat it without it, fine will mix it with chocolate spread looks gross tastes a bit bland but is edible. I always spray a little aerosol cream on the top, went to spray it and can let out huge burst of gas and covered me. This was all before 5:30am! Then I went to make Nan a coffee and knocked it over everywhere, I burnt myself on the kettle and then Lukas came downstairs. He wanted to be carried back upstairs, he's way to heavy for me now an accidently headbutted me straight in the face. Did I get around to mentioning about the abcess that burst the other night, no I don't think I did anyway long story short my face is all swollen from it and it hurts and Lukas made it worse. I had been awake all night and I was tired and miserable but I wasn't going to let Lukas down by not going to his sports day, so I take a few painkillers. I have only found one thing that takes the edge of the pain only problem is that they make me feel sick. So I thought I would lay down just to stop my head spinning and ease some of the nausea and I fell asleep. When Mark woke me up I felt so ill I couldn't even move. Lukas was crying because I was going to miss his first sports day, I really tried but I just couldn't do it. Don't worry Daddy will take pictures I told him and he went off to school happy. When Mark came back and woke me up again I asked if he had taken any good photos, he told me he had forgotten the camera. Lukas had kept saying to him don't forget the camera daddy, I had reminded him and the last words I said to him was have you remembered to put the new batteries in the camera, and he answered "yeah" just proves he doesn't listen to me. Lukas had a complete meltdown when he saw the Mark never had the camera and everyone else's mummy was there and his wasn't. I cried myself back to sleep because I felt like such a failure. I always swore I would never ever miss anything of his at school. When I was little I was that kid, you know the one that's at every school thing looking around for her mummy that's never there. The number of times I ended up in tears because my mum couldn't be bothered to come and watch anything is more than I can count. I never wanted to be that sort of mum. I never wanted to make Lukas feel like that and yet I did. It was beyond my control and I hate that, I hate being ill. But even though I wasn't there Mark had the power to make sure Lukas knew I wanted to see him taking part but he didn't and yet I am the one with the guilt. He has no remorse or anything about what he did. That's yet another first that I missed. I am completely and utterly devastated. There are other issues that are bugging me but my hands are hurting too much to vent about them, so my only option is to cry about them and feel miserable.

Bunny

Credits: Eggletts, French Countryside, Gotta Luv Him, Shabby Stitches ZigZag Circles, Paper Sack Bits, Dream Elements, Lil' Fan Fair, Ribbon Wraps, Stapled Borders (4x4 Rusty Circle), Vintage Blooms, Tied Ribbon Wrappers Satin, Hand Stamped Stencil Alpha and Dream Solids Pastels all by Christina Renee and Layered Template by Andrea Cox.

Yet another layout (CT Assignment)

I really hate pink lol! It's so hard to work with but this photo matched the papers perfectly.

Credits: Eclectic Sass by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Layered template 16 by Andrea Gold. Font is Tafelschrift.

I promise I will add all the recent enabling and a catch up of what I have been up to tomorrow at some point. It's Lukas's sports day tomorrow so I really need to go to bed so I can get up urgh I hate morning school events. All those people and icky bright light. Hope it doesn't last too long.

Created for the Christina Renee Grand Opening 4th Challenge - Use one of each product.

Credits: Urban Love, Stapled Borders (12x12 Circle Rusty), Bold Grunge Solids, Dream Elements, GetRDone Stitching, French Countryside collaboration with Shabby Princess, Digiscrap Tabs, Itty Bitty Ribbons and Funk That Spring FPD Collaboration all by Christina Renee.

Latest Layout

Credits: Little Darlin' Collaboration by Jessica Bolton and Krista Mettler and Cheaters Template 7 by Jennifer Layden (Jennilyn Designs). Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Felt Light, Glitter Light, Beads Light (altered), Flower Light, Brad Light, Paper Dark and Chipboard Light.Font is Pea Tracy.

I have something else to show you

Another scraplift of a layout by Christina Renee's CT. This time I chose this layout http://www.christinareneedesigns.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=302 by Quirky.

Credits: Rust-Ease, Stapled Borders (12x12 rusty circle), Funky Watercolours, Scratched Solids, Dream Solids Brights, Hand Stamped Stencil Alpha Brushes and Paper Sack Bits all by Christina Renee and July Sampler Layered template by Ashley Olson. Font is SP You've Got Mail.

Scrappin Fool!

Created for the Christina Renee Grand Opening 1st Challenge - Scraplift a layout by one of Christina's CT. I scraplifted this one http://www.christinareneedesigns.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=44 by KellieP.

Credits: Dream Solids Papers Bold, Dream Solids Papers Bright, Glitter Frames, Tied Ribbon Wrappers Satin, Dream Elements, Paper Sack Bits, Urban Love, Lil' Fan Fair Elements, CT Challenge Kit, Worn Label Tape Wordart Black and Digiscrap Tabs all by Christina Renee and Playing with paper 2 layered template 1 by Janet Phillips.

I slept for a bit and then I scrapped some more

Credits: 52 Weeks of Inspiration week 22 by Vicki Stegall, Euphoria by Gina Miller, Meredith Fenwick and Jan Crowley and Layered Template 4 by Colleen Brady (Adapted). Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Fiber Dark and Chipboard Dark. Font is SP Toggle.

Tired out

Credits: In My Studio: Reckless by Traci Reed and Layered Template by Rina Kroes. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Paint Light, Ribbon Light, Chipboard Light, Dark Stitching Light and Flower Light. Font is SP You've Got Mail.

So am I lol. Definately going for a few hours sleep now. If I come back before 3 hours, do me a favour kick me back off the computer lol.

2 more layout shares

Credits: Photo Collages 2 Layered Template and Love,Mom by Traci Reed, Staple by Royanna Lea Fritschmann and Grunge Alpha by Carla Gibson.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Chipboard Light, Metals Light, Cardstock Light, Photo Light, Ribbon Light and Fiber Light. Fonts are: SpeedballNo3 and SP You've Got Mail

Credits: Layered Template by Kim Johnson, 52 weeks of inspirations by Sue Cummings, Vicki Stegall and Lauren Reid. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardstock Light and Glitter Light. Font is SpeedballNo3.

Will be back at some point today to catch up on the enabling. I have sicky kid home from school, moody git of a husband home today and I need some sleep so it might be much much later.

Just a layout share

Credits: Sidewalk Chalk by Sherri Tierney, Chalked Edges Paper by Sue Cummings (Recoloured), Beauty Mark Volume 2 by Two Sisters Designs and Rectangle quickies layered template by Mish Gasser. Actions - Chalk and Gloss Paint by Atomic Cupcake. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Glitter Light, Photo Light, Paper Light and Alpha Light. Fonts are: Times New Roman, Taylor_Mackenzie, SpeedballNo3, Pea Whinney, SP Purkalator and SP_DoubleDoodle.

I couldn't sleep so I scrapped I do have stuff to tell you but I will save it for later for two reasons, 1. I am tired, there will be lots of mistakes lol and 2. my hands are really hurting.

Be back later, and if Marks goes and grovels to his brother to borrow his card reader (mine's not working properly) I have pictures to share.

Another layout with pictures from the Fete

Credits: Layered Template by Eva Kipler, 12 Days of Christmas by Tina Williams and A Beautiful Mess and Painted Doodles Hearts by Lisa Whitney. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Chipboard Light, Doodle Light, Alpha Light, Cardstock Light and Tulle Light. Font is DJB PAMB.

Went to Lukas's school fete

Took 173 pictures and I have already started scrapping them lol. I am so not looking forward to doing the enabling on this layout!

Credits: From My Gallery Layered Template 1-1 by Janet Phillips, Firecracker by Faith True, Duct Tape Stars by Ashley Olson, Discover Stars 2 by Trish Jones, Painted Doodle Stars and Artsy Fartsy Papers 1 by Lisa Whitney, Glitter Garden and Glitter Garden Addon by Jill D-Zines, Epoxy Star Border Blue by Jenn Patrick, Knock Kneed Alpha Brushes by Jenna Robertson and Stamp It Alpha Brushes by Two Sisters Designs. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Jellie Light, Chipboard Light, Paper Light, Lift Light and Metal Light. Fonts are SP You've Got Mail and Century Gothic.

Enabling: will have to wait until later.

So mad and utterly fed up!

I purchased something last weekend, that wouldn't download. I emailed the store, I emailed again a few days later when I got no response, I eventually asked one of the designers that sells at the store to please tell who I could contact directly. I got hold of them finally and that's when it gets interesting. I asked for a refund on the product because I don't want/need it anymore when I couldn't download it I had to go and buy something else at a different store. They offer to send me a CD. I don't want a CD I want my money back, if I wanted a CD I would have ordered one, the best part about digi scrapping is instant gratification. See it>Buy it>Download it>Unzip it>Scrap with it>Done. So anyway they then add insult to injury by sending an email that says this order is delivered, I mean WTF are they trying to piss me off? Just to rub salt into the wound they send me a gift certificate for the amount I paid. So I have two choices, either just suck it up use the gift certificate for stuff I don't even want or just leave it there and not use it either way that's $20 down the toilet with sod all to show for it.

Ick everyone is sick!

Mark has been throwing up, so being the man that he is hae has taken to our bed and spent the day moaning, whinging and generally doing what blokes do when they are ill. Lukas has another cough and is completely and utterly miserable today, every little word you say to him is setting him off in floods of tears. Nan is feeling rotten and me, well I have had 3 hours sleep because I have been trying to do everyone's else's stuff, keep everyone happy and fit in organising, file conversions and CT work like you do lol. Right now the situation is this - Mark is sleeping, Lukas is taking a break from crying and playing his playstation fingers crossed that will amuse him for a while, Nan is watching her chat show and then will be coming up for her afternoon lay down, she needs those a lot now. She lays down 2/3 times a day, it's hard to see her needing a rest that bad. For as long as I can remember she's always been doing "stuff" all the time. She insists on doing too much and incapable of just sitting and watching TV or doing nothing. Im the same, I can't sit down and watch something on TV without doing something else at the same time. Now if only I could find the energy/motivation to get up and tidy up we might reach some stage of normal by the weekend (but I doubt it!) back later.

Bored of layouts yet?

Credits: Layered template by Eva Bittig and Exquisite Grace by Royanna Lea Fritschmann.

Will add enabling later, I am going to bed lol.

Yet another layout share

Credits: Swass Frames, If you dare to be a baby, Photo FX and Got Scallops? Layered Templates all by Shandy Vogt.

Enabling: Swass Frames available here, If you dare (to be a baby) papers available here, Photo FX (gradient masks) available here and Got Scallops? Layered templates available here.

Another Layout

Credits: Swirl Papers, Red Papers, Love Scribble, Grungy Solids Papers, Artsy Fartsy Papers, Colorful Grunge Papers, Heart Lines, Strange Bits and Red Heart Swirl by Scrappy Pony Designs and Layered Template by Tara Dunstan. Fonts are Century Gothic and CK Frosting.

Enabling: All the Scrappy Pony stuff can be found either at her blog or her store. She also sells at Seaside Scraps. Tara Dunstan is now retired so her designs can't be bought anywhere.

Check out her tan

Credits: Layered Template by Eva Bittig and Bloomers by Royanna Lea Fritschmann. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Sticker Light, Ribbon Light, Flower Light, Paper Light and Flower Light. Font is SP You've Got Mail.

Enabling: Layered Template by Eva Bittig is found in set 3 available here

Bloomers by Royanna Lea Fritschmann is available here

Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Sticker found here, Ribbon found here and Flower found here.

The layout shares in no particular order

Credits: Got Swass? Layered Templates by Shandy Vogt and Exquisite Grace and Gettin' Sweet 1 Overlays by Royanna Lea Fritschmann. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Lace Light, Cardstock Light and Ribbon Light. Font is SP Wonderful Wendy.

Enabling:Got Swass? Layered Templates by Shandy Vogt available here
Exquisite Grace by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here, Gettin' Sweet 1 Overlays by Royanna Lea Fritschmann available here.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Lace available here, Cardstock available here and Ribbon available here.

Credits: He'll Break Your Heart by Traci Reed and Peteite Fleur Layered Template by Janet Phillips. Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard light, Beads light and Cardstock light. Font is 2Peas Raspberry.

Enabling: He'll Break Your Heart by Traci Reed available here,
Petite Fleur Layered template was supplied with the June kit from Songbird Avenue and is no longer available.
Traci Murphy Dropshadows - Cardboard available here, Beads available here and Cardstock available here.

Credits: Provided Quick Fix Template, Verde, Cherry Oh and Candy all by Alma Townsend. Font is JPaige_Kristin Cursive by Jeanelle Paige.

Enabling: Starter Quick Fix Template by Alma Townsend available here, Cherry Oh by Alma Townsend available here, Verde by Alma Townsend available here and Candy available here, JPaige_Kristin Cursive Font by Jeanelle Paige available here

Credits: Layered Template by Saab, Candy by Alma Townsend and Stampy Stamp Stamp Alpha by Rachel Young.

Enabling: Layered template by Saab available here, Candy by Alma Townsend available here and Stampy Stamp Stamp Alpha by Rachel Young available here

Credits: Layered Template by Eva Bittig, Chasing Rainbows and Summer Basket by Gina Miller.

Enabling: Eva Bittig's Layered Templates 10 are available here and Chasing Rainbows by Gina Miller was in the friends and family section at OScraps, The Summer Basket is now retired.

Oh dear

Looks like I am back to being a bad blogger lol. I honestly thought I had come back and updated with my new layouts, but either I meant to and never got around to it or I did do it and forgot to hit publish and they are sitting in my drafts lol. Whatever, I am here now though. I will start another post for the layouts because otherwise the spacing ends up all weird. So what have I been up to ummm not a lot lol. I trapped my finger earlier, in between the chair and the bed. See the thing is if my annoying husband hadn't adjusted my chair when he used my computer *shock, horror!* I wouldn't have been trying to adjust it back and I wouldn't have done it. Same as I wouldn't have stepped on broken lightbulb if he had either a: told me he had a broken a lightbulb so I could have cleaned it up or b: cleaned it up himself, sorry just laughed myself off the chair at that idea rofl. I have had lots of accidents lately and all of them seem to be down to something Mark has/hasn't done. Thank goodness he is at work tonight, I like the peace and quiet and here's a little confession for you I like the cartoons that Lukas watches lol. They are a lot easier to drown out and ignore, easier than icky sport anyway. Right off to bath me and Lukas, will be back afterwards with layout, promise.