Friday, February 25, 2011

Not You


Not You, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Eternal Templates, Template 1) and Eternal both by Joelle Lester (Daphadilly Art). Font is Hobo Std.
Journalling reads:By the time these photos were taken,you weren’t my tiny baby your body was swollen so much all of your skin was pulled tight, it was shiny from the fluid overload and red raw from all the latex they had used on you. The photo on the right was taken three days before it was time for us to say goodbye, the photo on the left was your last it was taken on a mobile phone camera as you laid in my arms for the final time and I played you Ronan Keating’s “Loving Each Day”. I hate these photos because to me they are of a stranger you had already left me.

Lucky Boy


Lucky Boy, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Stackables, Template 1) and Slainte Bundle both by Jen C Designs. Font is sf Chaney by Sugar Frog Fonts.
Journalling reads: When Ella wanted to go and see the Cbeebies Live show at the New Thatre, Auntie Lisa and Uncle Gary thought that you might like to go as well. They bought your ticket and they wouldn’t even accept the money from mummy for it. When the day finally came for the performance you were so excited. You waited anxiously by the front door while the rain poured down outside. You were so impatient and couldn’t wait to get going. You were so thrilled when Uncle Gary and Ella finally came to pick you up. This was the first time you had ever been on a trip like this without me. You went by car into the city centre and then you had to walk from the car park to the theatre. You were worried that you were going to get wet. But when you got out of the car the rain completely stopped so you were able to stay nice and dry. You and Ella had a lovely time, before you left you bought a souvenir Cbeebies program and couldn’t wait to show it to me. You are so lucky that you have a cousin so close in age to you to do fun things like this with. 13th April 2008.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Lost Tooth


Lost Tooth, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Speed Scrap Template 1) by Joelle Lester (Daphadilly Art) and Brush-a Brush-a by Laura White (C.W Picket & Company).

Dino Suit


Dino Suit, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Template Chat Freebie) by Marshmella Designs and Dino Collection by Joelle Lester (Daphadilly Art). Font is Rockwell.
Journalling reads: I don’t know why it is that you have suddenly decided that this green and blue fleece suit with the dinosaur on it is your favourite, but it’s the only one you ever want to wear, and you make a real fuss when it’s not clean!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Snowman


Snowman, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Speed Scrap Template 2) by Jaime Rhinehart (Cjoy2Day Designs), Cold (white paper, blue border and alpha) by Jen C Designs and Snow Blue by Mom2Moo Designs.

Monday, February 21, 2011

London Eye Desktop


London Eye Desktop, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Get With It February 2011 Template, slightly altered) by Amyscraps/3 Li’l Monsters Designs and A Day In My Life Collection (slightly recoloured) by Jen C Designs.

Ambrose


Ambrose, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Press Plate No 20, Left Hand Side Template) by Liz Tamanaha (Paislee Press), 52 Inspirations 2011 Week Six Mini by Vicki Stegall and 52 Inspirations 2011 The Basics by Sue Cummings and Vicki Stegall. Fonts are DJB Kenna Script and DJB Amber both by Darcy Baldwin.
Journalling reads: The other night as I was writing my belated blog post to Gaiebraille, I started thinking about a lot of things I was typing it and my thoughts wondered to you. Sometimes I feel like you got a pretty raw deal of it. When I found out that I was pregnant with you, I was already so hurt, so damaged, an emotional train wreck really. I laid all of my hopes and dreams on you, even though my brain screamed at me to be cautious and not get too attached to you, my heart is still an idiot and foolishly I allowed myself to indulge in my fantasies of a happy ever after with you. But I was never truly naive enough to do more than vaguely hope that it would all work out, so when it went wrong I admit it, I was almost relieved that it was over. It was never because I didn’t love you as much, I was just too scared to love someone so much again and risk having my heart re broken. Gaiebraille was my first, that cut was deep and slow to heal, frequently reopening and having to begin healing all over again. Leo was more like a cannon ball, shattering my heart into a million tiny pieces. I didn’t know where to start in the rebuilding process, my attempts were clumsy and everything frequently fell to pieces again. But you, well you were kind of like the universes equivalent of kicking a dog when it’s down. Cruel and unnecessary, but also kind of irrelevant, when something is already in so much pain and anguish what harm can one more blow cause? I was kind of numb to it all back then, unable to process all of the emotions that accompanied losing yet another baby. I can’t begin to tell you how sorry I am that I acted like you were just another lost baby, you were unique and special and you deserved so much more than I was able to give at the time. The problem to me was very simple, I knew I loved all of you equally so I couldn’t understand why I was incapable of grieving for you just as equally. I couldn’t comprehend just simply being too broken emotionally to process any of what I was feeling. I will never be able to find the words to express how guilty I feel for that, so I will just keep it simple, with 1 kiss and hug for each year since I lost you, I love you my sweet angel baby and I always will.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Ernie


Ernie, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Made In The Shade, February 2011) by Jane Lofts (Scrapastrophic Sensations) and You Are My Sunshine (slightly recoloured) by Jen C Designs.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Just The Three Of Us


Just The Three Of Us, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (I Love You Just A Little Bit,Template 4) and In Love With You both by Jen C Designs. Font is DJB Euroscript by Darcy Baldwin.
Journalling reads: This is one of those wedding photos that I have always overlooked, to me it was just us coming out of the registry office, standing at the top of the steps, nothing really special. At least it wasn’t until I looked through the photographs a bit closer and realised this is the only one of the three of us together. The photographer never bothered to take group shots.

Cuddle Time


Cuddle Time, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Photocentric 2, Template 20) by Emily Powers (RETIRED) and 52 Inspirations 2011 Week Five Mini by Sue Cummings and 52 Inspirations 2011 The Basics by Sue Cummings and Vicki Stegall. Font is 4990810.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Secret Smile


Secret Smile, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Tuesday Template, 8th February 2011) by Tracy Anderson (Trixie Scraps) and Adventure 365 January by Jewel Goodwin (Mad Genius Designs). Font is Travelling Typewriter.
Journalling reads: I adore this picture of you it looks like you are laughing at a private joke or maybe just filling your pants.

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Rawr!


Rawr!, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Tuesday Template, 25th January 2011) by Jami (Alansrock), I'm talking 'bout Can You Dig It? Wordart by Jodie McNally and Dino Bundle by Joelle Lester (Daphadilly Art).

Monday, February 07, 2011

No Photos Of Us


No Photos Of Us, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (From My Playlist, 31st December 2010) by Molly Weight (Biograffiti) and 52 Inspirations 2011 Week Four Mini by Vicki Stegall and 52 Inspirations 2011 The Basics by Sue Cummings and Vicki Stegall. Font is DJB Joy Script by Darcy Baldwin.
Journalling reads: Before we became a family you and me were never really a traditional couple. There was never really romance or dates, but there was always a lot of fire and passion, not always in a good way. It was only when I was looking through the photographs that I realised that with the exception of our wedding day, I don’t have a single photograph of just us together. As much as I adore our little family. I hope that one day I can fill that vacant frame with just one of you, me, us and we.

Sunday, February 06, 2011

Disney Pixar Monopoly


Disney Pixar Monopoly, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Credits: Layered template (Cindy's Templates, Former Freebies Set 1, Template 2) by Cindy Schneider, Monopoly Board Template by Brad Frost, Get Your Game On (slightly recoloured) Mega Kit contributions by Jaime Rhinehart (Cjoy2Day Designs), Melissa Robinson (Melly Scraps), Mom2Moo Designs and Jen C Designs. Fonts are Love Ya Like A Sister by Kimberly Geswein and Copperplate Gothic Light. Monopoly Logo from logotypes101.

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

Beach Babe


Beach Babe, originally uploaded by Lukasmummy.

Scraplift of So Sweet by marieh - http://www.digiscrapsdrivein.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=15687&cat=all&limit=last14
Credits: Chocolate Kisses and Chocolate Kisses Alpha both by Bonnie Blou Designs.