Kids say the strangest things

Yesterday Mark let Lukas go to sleep in the afternoon with me, for 5 hours. As anyone whose a parent will be aware afternoon naps are not really a great way to help kids sleep at night. I was ready to go back to sleep after having something to eat and drink, Lukas on the other hand was wide awake. The part that really annoyed me was that while I was wide awake trying to get Lukas to sleep Mark was whinging that he didn't feel well, asking me to call work for him and then asleep snoring his head off. I was at the very mildest description fed up. Lukas was a doll though he just sat watching tv until 4;50am this morning (at least when he wasn't getting fed up with Mark for turning the tv over to Ice hockey or climbing all over me for cuddles). But I am getting into rambling territory again. Long story short Lukas never went to school because he was too tired, Mark never went to work because he was "ill" and me I spent the day trying to sleep and ignore the noise that everyone was making. Nan is fuming because Mark has spent most of the day playing his playstation and watching tv, he never took any washing down, any dishes down and he's hardly paid any attention to Lukas. So I had a lovely set of lectures to wake up to Mark moaning that Nan was having a go at him, her moaning that he hadn't doen anything. Lately I have been feeling like a really bad mother because I have been so tired. The wedding album and 40 days layouts have been eating up all my "free time". The thing is everyone is always saying about how you should make time for yourself, but when you are exhausted all the time, even scrapping is hard work, I feel like I am neglecting Lukas. In a moment of madness earlier I asked Lukas a question. I'm going to share the conversation that followed with you.
Me: Lukas do you think I am a bad mumy?
Lukas: Yes
Me: Do you want a different mummy?
Lukas: No I Love you
Me: But you just said I was a bad mummy
Lukas: Not bad just different, and I love you.
Me: So are you happy with mummy?
Lukas: Yes you're my best friend
Me: Does it make you sad when mummy is poorly and can't play with you?
Lukas: Yes, I miss you, you make me happy.
Me: Love you Lukas
Lukas: Love you too mummy
Me: I'm going to see Nana, do you want to come?
He jumped over the bed ran out the door shouting "yay I escaped"
Me: Lukas you are crazy
Lukas: Thats why you love me.
It's hard to remember that he's only 4 when I have conversations like this with him. He's a very wise little boy, and I don't think I give him enough credit for how much he understands.
The other day he saw an advert on the tv for something and it had an ultrasound in it, he turned around and said to me "Mummy you had a baby in your tummy like that". He asked me something else earlier, he wanted to know why I only made layouts about him not about Leo. All the layouts that are on the computer at the moment are from this year and he's right I haven't scrapped much about Leo, because I don't really know what else I can say, I don't have many memories about Leo. I have forgotten so much about him and because I don't have many pictures there's not much to spark the memories. Its also still very raw to me, I know it shouldn't be but I am very nostalgic at the moment, I often find myself crying at babies on tv and I am still avoiding the baby clothes sections in shops. The wedding photos bought it all crashing back to the front of my mind, because there's always the knowledge that we probably wouldn't have ever got around to a wedding if he was still here. I'm just feeling low today.
I have two layouts left to catch up on for the 40 days, you can see the latest one here. Hopefully I will get the last two done either tonight if I can't sleep or tomorrow. On a completely unrelated note, just because I am still thinking about it have you seen the new show Hereos? Wow if you haven't heard about it or didn't see it you can do both here. They also showed episode 2 tonight but no doubt that will be repeated at some point.

40 Days day 19

You can see the layout here,
Journalling reads:Scrapbooking means different things to different people. Many scrap to leave their legacy as tangible pieces of artwork. For others the making of the layouts is actually more important than the memory that it preserves. I am determined that I have forgotten enough things. From the multiple medical issues I have forgotten things that should have been burned on to my memory. I want to preserve the memories of Leo and ensure that he is never forgotten. I want Lukas to remember the fun things we did together and how much I loved him. I want that to overshadow all the times I let him down because I am too ill to play with him or take him to school. Scrapping is a great release for all my emotions and a source of enjoyment to me.I love to create layouts, especially when I can share them and bring joy to other people. I have learnt so much about myself from ym scrapping. I hope to continue to learn and grow as a woman, a scrapper and a mother. I want to leave a piece of my heart and soul in every page. I am a mother preservingthe memories of my family in scrapbook pages. I take the time to record our special times with heartfelt journalling and photographs. I am a shopperholic buying new products to help preserve my memories with my own unique style and flair. Always searching for the next must have digital scrapbooking item.I am the voice for my pages giving the pictures the clarity to be more than just photos to give them the chance to tell their stories. To infuse my pages with my heart and soul.I am a person on a journey looking for the legacy I am supposed to leave behind. Discovering things about my inner demons and how I have overcome them and become strong.
That leaves me with 2 to catch up on I think or maybe 3 not sure.

40 Days Catch ups

You can see the catch ups for days 11,17 and 20 here.
Journalling for day 11 reads:A smile or a hug from my favourite little man, the best things in life are free, simple treasures-simple pleasures.

Journalling for day 17 reads:February 17th 2006.This time 4 years ago it was cold,and there was snow falling down when we went for a routine midwife appointment, she couldn’t find a heartbeat and we were sent to the hospital for them to check. We thought they would tell us everything was fine instead the words they spoke made our world come crashing down.Even though that was bad, It sounded simple go back the next day, they would induce labour and leave me to it, a few hours in hospital and it would all be over, we neverexpected that things would get so complicated. That a few hours would drag out across six weeks, with the doctors trying various things, and failing, or putting us off. Wenever thought when they made the choice that surgery was the only option, I would feelthe whole thing, or that it wouldn’t work. Never in our wildest nightmares thought that a second lot of surgery would lead them to remove my right fallopian tube and a large part of my uterus. We also never thought it would make having a baby so difficult.We were told we would have more chance of winning the lottery than having another baby, and then we had Leo, and despite the way that turned out he gave us back some hope. Then came Ambrose, and when it ended in another loss wealmost gave up hope. But we’re still standing, asa couple we are stronger than ever. We will not be defeated, we will keep trying and weathering whatever dissapointments come along, then maybe one day we will get thatperfect little baby girl or boy we are so hopingfor. I’m greatful to Gaiebraille because thatloss taught me so much and makes me always remember this quote.

Journalling for day 20 reads:A House is somewhere you live, a building made from bricks and mortar. It needs a family to fill it full oflaughter and memories to make it a home This is ours

Technically challenged and addicted to sales

Do you like my new blog header? I spent ages trying to add the silly thing, and it's still not right oh well I will fix it when I can be bothered. I used a blog template by Kimberly Geswein, the papers and elements are freebies I gave away here and here. If I dont like it later it might well be coming down lol. Enough about silly blog headers let's talk shopping. I was a very very bad girl, I went shopping for more stash. Want to see what I got? (you do know I am going to show you even if you say no don't you? lol)
First up Kimberly Geswein at My Digital Muse
Font packs: 10,11,12,13,14,15,4,5,6,7,8,9,
Funky Fonts Packs: 1 and 2
4x8 Photo Card Templates
Baby Mine Elements Pack
Blog Header Templates
Calendar Toppers
Card Sketch Templates
Photo Card Templates 5x7
Kimberly is retiring everything on 28th February!!

Next Miss Tiina at One Of A Kind Scrapz
Dirty Babe Boy
Dizzy Love Kit
Dizzy Love Tags
Floral Swirls Brushes
Fusian Floral Brushes
Fusian Frames Brushes
Miss Tiina Dreamie font
Miss Tiina Messy Font
Sparkle Styles

Then there was Traci Reed's Black Lace and Jill D-Zines Aubergine and Teal.

I just couldn't help myself the word SALE was just too tempting. I really hope Mark doesn't see exactly what I bought lol, he never reads my blog what's the betting today he decides to. It's fonts he will object to for the simple reasons he doesn't get why I need more than one lol. He only ever uses Times New Roman which I hate with a passion and would unistall it if I could.

I dont have much else to talk about, Mark is ill he's burning up bless him (also driving me crazy like a typical man he thinks he's dying when he is ill), I am ill as usual have gone back to sleepless nights and days of either being exhausted or sleeping nearly all day. I'm used to the daily pain it's not a huge deal to me anymore, but for a while I have had earache and its driving me crazy. It feels like my whole head is full of water. Lukas has finally gone back to school and I don't mean that in a half term's over I am happy way, I mean because he has been ill for so long, I hate him being at school it's boring and dull without him lol. Nan's not very well either so as you can gather the house is not really a happy place to be right now. Everyone is snappy because they are hurting and tired. Hopefully it will get better soon.

I did manage to get a layout done during my insomnia, it's day 16 for the 40 days, I still have 11,14,16,17,18 and 19 to catch up on. You can see the layout here, the journalling reads:Family is everything to me andnothing means more to me than this beautiful little man.He’s my hope for the futureI would do anything within mypower to ensure that he never has to feel any pain or sadness. I want nothing more than tomake him happy, he is my future, my legacy and the best thing I could ever imagine being ableto do is let him know that he is my whole world and I love him with all my heart and soul.Children are the world's most valuable resource and its best hope for the future. (John F. Kennedy)

That's about it for now, I might be back later with the other 40 days layouts, providing of course that I can stay awake long enough to scrap them lol

No one else remembered

it sucks that I do. Wondering what I am talking about? I'm talking about Gaiebraille, it's 4 years ago today. All three dates - 17th February, 10th April and 28th November are etched on my heart and no amount of time will erase them. Mark's at work and Lukas has gone to Ella's birthday party. The part that makes it worse is we also found out I was pregnant with Leo on this date in 2004 and this time last year we were debating whether we should do a test (we never got around to it unti the 19th).There is no one I can talk to about it, no-one understands they think I should have forgotten by now. I just feel really alone and miserable today.

Wedding Brag Book Page

My 1st Page about the Best Man, I have two more pages in mind, but they are a lot harder to scrap than I thought they would be. There seems to be no wordart at all available for the other members of the bridal party like the Best Man so if anyone is reading this and is up for making any I would be very greatful lol.

Yesterday I went on a little spending spree and that's what I have used for this page. See I knew I "needed" it lol.

Credits: Rhapsody in blue alpha and Whispered promises (recoloured) by Rina Kroes and Sparkle Silver Ink action by Tandika Star.

40 Days day 15

You can see my layout for day 15 here. I never got around to doing day 14 as it's a family tree. Very difficult with my family.Journalling reads: You are my very best friend, I tell you all my secrets, You know exactly what I think and how to comfort me, I'm so glad I met you.

40 Days Day 12 and Day 13

Playing catch up today, I haven't managed day 11 yet because I need a photograph, but I have caught up on days 12 and 13.
You can see Day 12 here and Day 13 here.

The journalling for day 12 reads:
You fill me with wonder how can one small little boy bring so much joy to ourlives just by being there You are amazing andeverytime I see you I am overwhelmed bythe amount of love I feel for you. Innocentand adorable,you are my world and I adoreyou Lukas.

The journalling for day 13 reads:
It’s often said that you don’t know what you have until it’s gone but often you don’t know how good something can be until you have it. I always used to say that Inever wanted to have children. Growing up in a house with so many brothers and sisters screaming babies seemed really unappealing and I really couldn’t see why anyone would want one. They used to drive me insane.When I found out I was pregnant with Lukas I spent a lot of time unsure of what I felt. I was filled with conflicting emotions. When he was born I honestly didn’t like him, his birth was a shocking experience and he was a boy, I had been told he was a girl. But after a sleep, I woke up and demanded to know where he was I was worried about him. That’s when I understood why people had kids, the bond you feel is truly the most awe inspiring thing. I spent the first few months of his life apologising to him for ever doubting that I wanted him. I could never be without him now, I feel lost when he isn’t here.

I'm going to try and get days 14 and 15 done while Lukas is in the bath (Marks bathing him for a change). It's amazing how much I can get done when those two aren't constantly pestering me. They both went to sleep this afternoon it was so peaceful, I forgot how easy it is to work when Lukas is at school and Mark is at work.Lukas is a bit better today, still coughing quite a bit though and has a constantly running nose.

If I get them finished I will bhe back with 14 and 15.

dedicated2digital.com New Release WOW!!

But that will come later in this post.I meant to say earlier Happy Valentines Day, I got my card this morning from Mark before he went to work. We are going to have our valentines day tomorrow. No I still haven't done his present but I have something special planned and he doesn't mind waiting. What I have managed is to convert him to the dark side, not only is he now scrapping at least once a day he has a blog.
Want to take a look?
http://www.lukasdaddy.blogspot.com
I installed elements on his machine for him and showed him how to make a simple layout using templates. The next trick to teach him is recolouring and if he's really nice I might let him play on my CS2 lol.
Now I will talk about the point of the post :) dedicated2digital has released a new kit! It's a collection of 7x5 dDroppers (aka quickpages) There are a massive 21 pages all together some of them are finished pages complete with quotes. Others are .png files (transparent so you can slide your photos underneath). You will be able to create amazing gifts in a hurry. But the best part is they will look like you spent hours on them! You can see the two pages I made using it earlier here. They took a few minutes and I think they look fab lol.
Such a great way to tell someone you love them.
If you want them (and I know you will) you can grab them over at dedicated2digital
and as if that wasn't already amazing they are on special $2 off normal price!

Wedding Brag Book Page 17

I found an amazing quick page on Rina Kroes Blog, which seemed perfect for the walking down the aisle picture I have been stuck on how to scrap. There is a second photo of us walking down the aisle but I HATE it. Might have to scrap it though since I am running out of ideas and I need make 36 pages in total.


So anyway here's the layout,

Credits: Whispered Promises QP Rina Kroes. I suppose I also should confess that I ended up buying the matching kit as well as two others lol. I am behind on my 40 days layouts again and trying to catch up. I also haven't got around to making Marks Valentine Gift yet eeek.

40 days again

Hurray all caught up with the 40 days, just have to do todays when it is posted.
You can see the layout here
Journalling reads:To my darling husband, would you like to know why Ichose to spend the rest bof my life with you?Who else could I rely on to always bring a smileto my face even when I am in floods of tears.Who else knows exactly what to say and do to cheer me up. Who else would do silly thoughtful things like cycle to the local supermarket at 1am because I saidI fancied something, or cycle into the city centre to buy me a milkshake when I was poorly. Who would see me at my very worst and still love me just the same. With the exception of Nan and Lukas you are the only other person I still love unconditionally even when I am angry at you.I miss you when you aren’t here and I can’t sleep unless you are beside me. I love you so much you make me complete as a person.

I really should be doing more pages for the wedding album but I just feel horrible today, all stiff and sore all I really want to is go to sleep.

Day 9

You can see the layout here.
Journalling reads: My desk is always covered with stuff that should have been put away, or part completed projects. as well as loads of other bits and pieces.On my desk right now is:A Champagne glass that I have been drinking my caffiene free coke from.Our alarm clock that we never remember to set. My Diary that I keep meaning to add all the birthdays and other important dates to.Some batteries that need to be put on charge.A camera that needs new batteries.A pair of earrings that should have gone back in the jewellery box.Wedding cards waiting to be scanned.2 cups of Lukas’s that should have been washed up but haven’t been.Marks game he hasn’t put away, and the photo albums waiting for the wedding brag book layouts that I have finished but not got around to printing yet.We are definately a very disorganised family, no matter how many times I tidymy desk things seem to end up coveringevery available space again. This is oneof the reasons I love being a digi scrapperso much, I can preserve my memories andthoughts without adding even more mess.I love that I can clean up with a few clicksand that the only things that need to beput away is a keyboard and a mouse.But most of all I love that I can get ridof mistakes with the undo button now ifI could get one of those for my house, my desk would never be messy again

Day 8 is now finished

Just have day 9 to do and I am all caught up, because 10 still doesn't seem to be up.
You can view the layout here and incase you are interested the journalling reads:The one place in the world I find happiness is in my bedroom. It’s the only place I can go to escape from things, I have my computer to communicate with both my friends and my inner artist, as well as fulfilling my desire to shop. I have my clothes that make me feel comfortable and often inspire me. I have my television to watch my favourite shows as a way to relax. I have my music to drown out the sound of anything I don’t want to hear. But most importantly of all I have my bed where I can have cuddles with my husband and my son.The place where I can feel safe,secure and most importantly loved, just for being who I am.
No doubt no-one is surprised i have used my 2 favourite Artistry Papers again that makes 6 layouts with them I think,a record for me lol.

40 Days catch up

Lukas has gone out with Lisa so I am using the time to catch up on my 40 days layouts, I have finished day 7 and I am just about to start on day 8. Also have days 9 and 10 to do. But 10 doesn't seem to be posted yet.
If you want to look at Day 7 you can see it here, the journalling on it reads -You are so critical of yourself. I watch you when people pay you compliments you get so defensive almost angry. It’s because you don’t understand how anyone can love youwhen you don’t even love yourself.I really wish you wouldn’t think you are unlovable. You doubt your abilities as a mother, a wife and even asjust a person. It’s silly really because you havethe most amazing little boy, he is a real creditto you, and its so obvious you adore him. Youhave a husband and Nan that think you arespecial and talented. They think that becauseyou are it’s such a shame you dont believe inyourself as much as they believe in you. Takethe time to remember everything that hashappened in your life, you must be strong because your still standing be proud of yourself.

Wedding Brag Book Cover

Why is it I can't seem to get motivated to do the stuff I am supposed to be doing, I still haven't done my 40 days layouts, or anymore pages for the wedding album but I made a cover page lol.

Credits:Card template by Webchyck, Wedded Bliss by Francine Haman, A Lil' bit of yellow by Dawn Wilson, Happy Birds by Tandika Star, Summer Blossoms Collaboration Mega Kit, Ad Challenge 30th July 06 by Kelly Mize, Paper by Denise Docherty, Amy's Garden by Michelle Rodriguez, Always by Jen Reed and Krista Mettler,Eternity by Jen Reed and Krista Mettler, All Year Round by Sharia Braxton, Ink n Sand by Blushbutter,Stronger by Denise Docherty. Font is DonnysHand.

Gifts are not always a good thing

You might remember I made Nan a calendar as a Christmas Gift, when Lisa saw it she asked if I would make her one too. I finally made an effort to do it this evening (since its february and all lol) all I can say is she better like it lol. I missed watching Bonkers because I was doing that and so far it's been printing for nearly and hour and its on April! I still have wedding album pages to do but they were stressing me out so I took a little break from them for this evening. I think the bit that upsets me though is people assume these gifts are quick and easy to make, they really aren't they take a lot of time and effort and they aren't exactly cheap either. When they are appreciated that's the best thing in the world and I am happy to them. Like for Nan I would make her anything because she really appreciates it. Marks mum on the other hand tends to throw my gifts into the back of the cupboard and forget about them which makes me furious. I really object to giving her gifts at all, when I make stuff she pulls that face, you know the disapproving is that all kind of look and when I buy her stuff she takes it to the boot sale. Since we are talking about gifts, I will share something else I made tonight - Mark's cup. I bought those travel mugs with the customisable inserts a la starbucks from Tchibo an absolute steal at £6 each. Mark has been bugging me since we got them to please do his mug. He has used it constantly since we got them. So here is the insert, I can't be bothered to fix the pictures of the mug, the glare is really bad on them. I will take some decent ones tomorrow, never trust a man to take pictures. Credits: Artistry Papers by Krista Mettler, Cowgirl alpha by Tandika Star and September Sapphire Birthstone Hearts Silver Melany Violette.

On a completely different subject we have snow! Our garden has a good few inches of coverage and we had a great time getting all wrapped up and going for a play outside, poor Lukas could hardly move with all the clothes he had on lol. We sort of built a snowman and then had a lot of fun kicking him over lol. The only sad thing we dont have any pictures because the camera batteries died and when we went to go look for some more, it started to rain. But I might so a few pages with a lot of journalling to remember the occasion. I have 2 days of 40 days layouts to catch up on yesterdays and todays. I was going to do it last night after my bath but I had an accident and slipped and landed my whole weight (and thats some substantial amount lol) on my left arm have a very gruesome looking bruise and cant really move my arm properly. It's not the first time I have hurt my self and I am sure it won't be the last. Fantastic the ink has just run out on my printer. May-December will have to wait to be printed until tomorrow when I buy two new cartridges. Nothing is ever just simple is it!

Ella and Conor

I just made this and thought I would share it with you.Credits: Art Song Trilogy and Pure Joy wordart by Krista Mettler, Everlasting by Jen Reed and Krista Mettler. I'm going to print it out for Lisa tomorrow. Hope she likes it x

40 Days Day 6 and sicky baby

Layout for day six is done, you can see it here,
The journalling reads:Everyday I get up and see you,I am inspired to be a bettermum you fuel my creativity andsurround me with ideas. You aremy muse and I adore you Lukas.
When I first read the challenge for today I knew exactly what my layout was going to be about because Lukas always has been my biggest source of inspiration and he probably always will be.
He's been poorly today, spent the whole of last night screaming. I couldn't find out what was wrong, I finally gathered that his ear was hurting him again and after much screaming on his part, shouting from frustration on mine we came to inevitable conclusion - He threw up all over me. he's a strange child refuses to take any medication so I can't do anything for him when he is in pain and it hurts me. He spent most of today sleeping on the sofa and looking miserable, he's been sick a few times and has a rash all over his bum. Gave him a bath and suddenly he became the energiser bunny lol. He's asleep now but very restless I have to keep checking on him, to satisfy my mummy paranoia and make sure he's not having another nosebleed. I really hate it when he is ill. I am off to bed now because I am really tired and I get the feeling he isn't going to be asleep long. Catch you tomorrow xx

Wedding Brag Book Page 16

Woohoo half way there!!!

Credits:Credits: In a snap brag book 2 template 7 by Sherri Tierney,Springthingz, Art Song - Rhapsody, Explore Color, Rhapsody in blue and Rock Star by Krista Mettler (all items slightly recoloured) Bliss Mini By Carrie Stephens

Tick Tock It's Lukas O'clock

I decided to do something with all those tiny pictures that aren't quite good enough to scrap with today, I made a clock for my wall with it.

Credits: Birthdayz and Artistry Papers (that's the numbers) by Krista Mettler, Clock template by Amy W.

Wedding Brag Book page 15

Page about our first kiss I dont mind this page but the colours seem to print our more towards lilac than blue. So might alter them slightly tomorrow.

Credits: Questionnaie freebie by Shawn Bird J3 Designs (recoloured), RAKscraps April 06 Add on contributions by Robin Cabana and Rachel Dickson, Digi Dazzlers by Jeanelle Paige, Diamond hearts by Kim Higueria, Launchpad Miniatures 2 template 5 by Bree Clarkson and Silver action by Atomic Cupcake.

Wedding Brag Book page 14

These titles are getting so original lol.

I will be including a CD of the music we had at the wedding with the album so I thought that some pages with the words would be a nice touch.

Credits: In a snap Brag Book Musical edition by Sherri Tierney and Soft Music by Rebecca Myers.

Day 5

As you are all aware I have a major stash habit, sometimes I buy stuff because I have an idea for it or I like a certain element and then I forget I have it or I don't get around to it. I am trying really hard to use some of my older stash purchases and on this layout I managed to use 2 really old kits. You can see the layout here.Journalling reads:In my life I have one thing that I love as much as my family,I love my computer, my digi stash and most of all I love mycopy of Photoshop Creative Suite 2. It allows me to take allthe photographs I took of Leo and make them into pages sothat he is never forgotten. I can take the pictures that capturethe moment but aren’t quite right and fix them. I can createworks of art for my family to treasure. I can record my take onevents so future generations can see what my thoughts andopinions were. I am always driven to try out new productsand techniques. My style is constantly changing and I like to believe that when I am no longer around my pages will contain a piece of my heart and soul. I will leave my memories as scrapbook pages

Life sucks!!

When you just can't settle down and go to sleep. We took Lukas, Conor and Josh to Jamboray again (that's where we went the other day after school. We had a great time but I managed to take 0 pictures, not because the camera broke again but just because I couldn't be bothered to hassle the kids, I just left them to it. I even got some layout inspiration not quite sure where it came from but after "borrowing" some paper from the arts and crafts section I now have 20 sketches lol. We walked back and I was shattered, I ended up falling asleep - bad idea. 2 hours later back wide awake and fed up. I scrapped my 40 days layout as you can see from the previous post lol and tried to get back to sleep. Not really made any easier by mark watching the Superbowl and playing annoying games on Pogo. I mean why do men feel the need to play those games with the music on full?? If anyone's interested the Colts won the superbowl. It absolutely tipped down with rain from start to finish and Prince was the half time act.
I bought something today that you will more than likely see scrapped tomorrow. I saw it in the corner shop and it just screamed "BUY ME FOR LUKAS" it's a little white cuddly dog, with a blue nose, huge great floppy blue ears and a blue patch on its back, has a ribbon around his neck and he is the sofest most adorable thing I have ever seen. Lukas adores it. Wouldn't even go to sleep without his "Gog" and before you ask yep he can say dog but Gog is much more him lol.
For some bizarre reason Lukas has just woken up and doesn't look like he will be going back to sleep anytime soon and he has to get up for school in about 4 hours 10 minutes lol. Mark is snoring his head off truly amazing how he can have everything so loud he wakes/keeps us awake and then just goes to sleep when we can't, he's a git lol. Haven't done any wedding album pages today, but will hopefully get some done tomorrow, or later since it technically is tomorrow.

40 Days day 4

My layout can be found here
Journalling reads:Pain comes in many forms, I happen to think that people are a lot more resiliant to physical pain then they are to pain that comes from bruised feelings. It’s often difficult to accept that it’s not you that has a problem and that some people just will not love you whatever you do.I have spent a lot of my life wondering why my mum doesn’t seem to like me, why my dad doesn’t seem to be bothered about me and it took until my wedding day for something inside me to click. My mum doesn’t care or she wouldn’t have tried to destroy my happiness by not being there. That’s her issue not mine and I can’t fix that. As for my dad I was wrong he does care he just doesn’t know how to show it but the tears he cried and the effort he made to be there spoke louder than any words ever could.
I made the the background papers you can get them here if you like them BUT they are 6x4 because thats what size I am making my 40 days album, you could always use them as mats though. Will definately be redoing Day 3 tomorrow as it still seems to bright and happy, it will be same layout just darker colours maybe a teal and deep purple.

Tagged!

So by reading Krista's blog, I was tagged.
1. What is your occupation? Well I think my job is being a mummy lol. But at the moment scrapping my wedding brag book seems like a job lol.
2. What color are your socks right now? I don't like socks, so I don't wear them very often but I did get a cute pair of slipper socks for christmas.
3. What are you listening to right now? The little mermaid what can I say I am a huge kid lol.
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Chicken roll that lovely hubby just made me lol.
5. Can you drive a stick shift? Nope I can't drive at all.
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Probably one of those rainbow colour ones you can change the tip on, I am pretty unpredictable.
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Some idiot trying to sell me a mobile phone, he put the phone down on me lol.
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Well I don't really know her but her digi designs totally rock!
9. How old are you today? 22
10. Favorite Drink? Caffeine free coca cola.
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? Speedway mmm be still my heart rofl.
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? A few times but my hair is so dark even the most vivid red I could find only gave it a nice shine lol.
13. Pets? Does Lukas count? LOL
14. Favorite Food? Pasta, Kinder or Galaxy chocolate, stopping now I am making myself hungry.
15. What was the last movie you watched? All the way through? Happy Feet last Saturday and even then I have to admit I went back to scrapping mid way through.
16. Favorite day of the year? I don't think I have one.
17. What do you do to vent anger? Write my blog lol.
18. What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbies, suppose this is the point where I confess to running them over with a tank lol. Also had a thing for baby dolls, used to dress them and cart them around like real kids, Im starnge lol.
19. What is your favorite, fall or spring? I like both its the colours that do it for me. Flowers, leaves its all good for me.
20. Hugs or kisses? Definately both
21. Cherries or blueberries? Neither but I like almost every other fruit.
22. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? I like blog hopping so if you want to answer these I would be more than willing to read it.
23. Who is most likely to respond? Probably no-one lol.
24. Who is least likely to respond? Mark since he doesn't even have a blog lol.
25. Living arrangements? Me, Mark, Lukas and Nan in a 3 bedroomed house.
26. When was the last time you cried? I have been doing that a lot lately just feel really weepy lately.
27. What is on the floor of your closet? It has a floor? LOL I can't even open it there is so much stuff in there eventually we will get around to sorting it but since the choice was a wardrobe we couldn't use or a bedroom we couldn't use the choice was a bit simple lol.
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? Don't think that one applies.
29. What did you do last night? I scrapped more pages for the wedding album, did my 40 days layout. Didn't do much else yesterday.
30. Favorite smell? Emporio Armani perfume (the gold bottle) is yummy, bubble bath and talcum powder are definately my favourtie things.
31. What inspires you? Lukas is a great source of inspiration, Magazines, ads, sketches, e-zines more stuff than I could ever begin to list.
32. What are you most afraid of? Losing another baby is probably my biggest fear.
33. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburgers? Oh bacon cheeseburgers are always a good way to my heart.
34. Favorite kind of dog? One that belongs to someone else! I have nothing against animals but the licking jumping all over me quota is already filled by Lukas roflmao.
35. Number of keys on your key ring? 2 I think I don't remember the last time I saw my keys.
36. How many years at your current job? well Lukas is 5 in August lol.
37. Favorite day of the week? Fridays because there is decent TV programmes and I get to lay in for two days lol.
38. How many states have you lived in? I'm in UK we don't really have states but I have lived in Oxford all my life.
39. Favorite Holidays? Christmas is nice but always seems to go wrong, same as every holiday.
40. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? Nope can't even drive a bike, me and wheels just don't mix lol.

There you go, now if you made it all the way through that, well done you. But that now means you are tagged too lol. If you answer the tag just leave me a comment and I will go read it lol. Be back later

Day Three

I have uploaded my layout for day three here,complete with full credits.But like much of my scrapping today something seems wrong to me with it, I will probably redo it tomorrow I think its the colours I picked that are wrong. Incase you want to read the journalling:
If anyone was to ask me what it was that I really wanted they would probably be surprised at the answer.I want to get up for one morning in my life and not feel any pain. I hope one day to overcome whatver medical issues make my life a misery.I want to be able to take Lukas to school everyday and play with him like a normal mum. I often feel like I am letting him down because of my health issues. I don’t like letting him down.t would give me a great deal of joy if our lives were blessed with another child. I would love a baby girl but a baby boy would be great too.We all miss Leo so much. I hope that Lukas and Mark will always be happy and that we can conquer any problems as a family. I hope that Nan is with me for a long time to come,because I truly will be lost without her.My dreams always come back to my family because they are my whole world.

Wedding Brag Book Page 13

Cutting my wedding cake, look I managed to avoid showing my grandma how wasted I was lol. That was just before I fell asleep lol but what she doesn't know won't hurt her lol.

Credits: Snowy White by Renee Peters, From this moment by Rina Kroes, RAKscraps women of strength mega kit contribution by Amy Wolff, Wedding Bells are ringing contribution by Barbie Chewning and Build a Brag Book Collection 1 template 1 by Heather Heinzer.

Honestly I am getting sick of the sight of my wedding photos lol

Wedding Brag Book Page 12

I spent a really long time working on the layout of the cake. I was about to do one final part and save it when photoshop crashed and I lost everything. I really didn't have the energy to sit and redo the whole process again so this is an alternative version I have made for now with a simple black and white photograph. But who knows I may well end up redoing it tomorrow. Good job I always keep layered .psd files lol.

Credits:Build a Brag Book Collection 3 template 6 by Heather Heinzer,Rain Sampler by Ginger T, Cool Blue Backpack by Krista Mettler (recoloured), Fresh Backpack by Krista Mettler, Wedded Bliss by Peggy Brutcher, Blue Heaven by Michelle Coleman, Ad challenge 4th June Kelly Mize and Aubergine Elegance brushes by Jill D.

All comments/criticism on this one much appreciated.

Wedding Brag Book Page 11

Credits:From this moment by Rina Kroes, Journalling brushes by Atomic Cupcake and Build a Brag Book Collection template 3 by Heather Heinzer.
Font is AEnigma scrawl.

My wedding album has just been delivered

The pictures are really huge, the album is gorgeous. Personally I prefer to look at scrapped pictures rather than just pictures, but it is nice.
I also have the pictures that were taken of Lukas with Father Christmas on Boxing Day.
I don't really know what else to say so I will get back to scrapping the brag book.

Wedding Brag Book Page 10

10 down only another 26 to go, OMG what did I let myself in for.

Credits: I Thee Wed by Annette Farrely (recoloured using Atomic Cupcake Silver action), Eternity by Jen Reed and Krista Mettler, Heart by Sue Jenson,Call me blue by Melany Violette (recoloured), Wedded Bliss by Peggy Brutcher, Bella Mini by Sue Jones and Launch Pad miniatures 1 template 1 by Bree Clarkson.

Wedding Brag Book Page nine

These pages seem to take so long to complete I have to admit I am starting to wonder if I will ever get the 36 pages finished.

Credits: From this moment by Rina Kroes, Eternity by Jen Reed and Krista Mettler, Wedding Bells are ringing contribution by Barbie Chewning and Smarties Brag Book template 8 by Teresa Ferguson

Day Two

You can see my layout for Day Two here.
It was a lot of fun to do but seemed to take ages to finish. I know I went and had a bath in the middle of making it but it still took nearly 3 hours to complete and it's only a 6x4!
I really love friday nights, I listened to Blind Justice while I scrapped and now I am sort of watching NCIS. I am now going to try and do a couple more wedding layouts but I am super tired so I might not manage it.

Intro update

Just incase you haven't noticed I have updated the intro at the top of my blog. I was also going to add this "I love to scrap and my current projects to complete this month are a Brag Book of my wedding, 40 Days of Scrapping Purpose at Divine Digital, February Challenges at Digiscrapdivas and anything else that catches my eye" but I exceeded the character limit.
I might have to make something in Excel to help me keep track.

40 Days of scrapping purpose

Is being re-run over at Divine Digital.
I have decided that I will be posting my pages for this on my scrapbooking blog.
The page for day one can be viewed with full credits here
I am going to try my hardest to keep up but I have the wedding brag book to finish and challenges at digiscrapdivas I want to take part in. This is going to be a very busy month scrapping wise for me. When I get a minute I will give my scrapbooking blog an overhaul. Its long overdue and I want to have the ability to label posts (like I do here) with the layout name.

Me and Lukas have just had a blast

We went to a children's play area at the Kassam stadium with Conor and Ella and Reese and Morgan. It was fabby. I will definately take Lukas back again. Im pretty sure he will be out like a light tonight. He has been trampoling, swinging, diving in a ball pit, racing cars, climbing, sliding, hanging, swinging they made me tired just watching them. Especially Conor I got the most fab picture of him mid somersault. The only down points were Lukas banging his head on the door frame while we were waiting to be picked up and my camera suddenly dying, and Conor got a small cut on his middle finger. I got absolutely no sleep last night or today and although I feel super tired and my eyes feel like they are full of sand I have a feeling I am still not going to be able to sleep.
Will share pictures of Lukas tomorrow, I am too tired to download them now.
Oh before I go I meant to mention the camera started working again when we got home how typical is that lol.

Wedding Brag Book page eight

Credits: Bohemian Batik by Debra Arif, Forget me not by Heather Humecky, Word art by Kelly Schults and Layered template by Heather Heinzer

Font: CrayonE

Wedding Brag Book page seven

Not sure if this one will make the final book yet, but anyway i have scrapped it so I thought I would share it.

Credits:Reason for the season card templates by Traci Reed (rotated), Baby Boy by Natalie Bird (recoloured), A Baby Boy Story by Jen Reed,He Loves Me by Royanna Lea Fritschmann, Funny Valentine by Kim Johnson (recoloured).



Also have something else to show you, my layout for the Sketch Challenge at Digiscrapdivas

Credits:Layered sketch, Comfy Jeans Element pack and Chocolate Sky by Traci Reed Fonts are:Pea XOXO and Augie

Will probably be in and out throughout the day adding more stuff.

Welcome to February

Since I was awake I figured I might as well do something, so I made you a kit,I was bored and tired so it's nothing special. I will make a few more bits when I get time.

You can download it here Welcome to February

I made you a contact sheet so you can see whats in it.

Probably be back later with some more Brag Book pages xx

ADSR final challenge

For the tenth and final challenge of the race, your assignment is: SCRAPLIFT YOUR TEAMMATE!

I went through Amy's gallery and chose this one

http://digitalfreebies.com/gallery/showphoto.php?photo=6715

Credits: Rock Star by Krista Mettler. Font is Dymo. I feel a bit sad that the race is over with. I had a blast especially since some of the challenges really pushed me out of my box. I wonder what Amy will chose to scraplift of mine?